Wishes granted.
Well what do you know. My wishes have been granted - I'm sick with a head ache and a sore throat and an ill temper. Oleg let me off from the field trip, which was both a relief but also another jab at my already brimming guilt. I want to say I'm hitting my lowest low at the moment, but I fear it has potential to delve deeper.
I really haven't been able to do anything constructive. I've taken several shots at my Modes paper only to find myself slouching in front of the screen for 30 minutes at a time. I've tried changing locations four times today, walking back and forth from my dorm to the library with no evident progress. It wouldn't be as stupid if I had my ID but unfortunately that's lost so I ended up wasting a total of one hour in front of my dorm waiting for some generous person to pass by and let me in. It's surprising how few people walk around during class hours.
I'm not even trying to put up the slightest facade of being social or communicative - that's how I know this is bad. I've been plugged into my music for a good 48 hours now. Probably the reason for my migraine. But it's been conducive to avoiding conversation, which seems to be my main desire at the moment.
Damn, I haven't been so reclusive and hostile in ages. If this lasts any longer, I will be totally screwed and devastated until the end of the semester.
I guess one good thing is that I bought the latest Snow Patrol album, A Hundred Million Suns which is quickly growing on me. I can sense they've matured a good deal but it's good that they've returned to their original style. I was worried that after "Chasing Cars" they'd lose their initial Songs For Polarbears touch.
I really haven't been able to do anything constructive. I've taken several shots at my Modes paper only to find myself slouching in front of the screen for 30 minutes at a time. I've tried changing locations four times today, walking back and forth from my dorm to the library with no evident progress. It wouldn't be as stupid if I had my ID but unfortunately that's lost so I ended up wasting a total of one hour in front of my dorm waiting for some generous person to pass by and let me in. It's surprising how few people walk around during class hours.
I'm not even trying to put up the slightest facade of being social or communicative - that's how I know this is bad. I've been plugged into my music for a good 48 hours now. Probably the reason for my migraine. But it's been conducive to avoiding conversation, which seems to be my main desire at the moment.
Damn, I haven't been so reclusive and hostile in ages. If this lasts any longer, I will be totally screwed and devastated until the end of the semester.
I guess one good thing is that I bought the latest Snow Patrol album, A Hundred Million Suns which is quickly growing on me. I can sense they've matured a good deal but it's good that they've returned to their original style. I was worried that after "Chasing Cars" they'd lose their initial Songs For Polarbears touch.