it means i'm dying.

[threedollars]

tonight i raise this glass of wine to driving drunk and feeling fine
the only thing i can do to keep your mouth from my life
your words slipped from your lips as easy as your kisses did
and i knew all along but i still wanted it regardless

i can hear the church bells ringing from my window sill
and i try to imagine some stable future full of god
but i can't even hold on to my characteristics
while i try to imagine a practice of a life full of love

but to look past the plastic is one thing i am good at
just wanted you to know that i can see right through you
whenever you get a chance i want you to look into a mirror
and really look at yourself and stick to what's fucking true

just remember that you are always faking it
trying to avoid the confrontation you definitely deserve
maybe you can drive and cry at the same time
but you can't fake tears when you're dead.

because i'm sucking on my cigarettes
sucking on my cigarettes sucking on my cigarettes
"like they're the last real thing i have"
and i'm flying too close to the sun again
you should know what that means.