Great expectations lead to great let downs
So, yet again, my huge hopes for a relationship have caused me to be let down severly. the night was going just fine, aside from my shitty conversation with my mother, but about 8ish, i saw erik get some gas, but he put it on his card & left. He came back about 20 minutes later and came in the store. Janelle was going to ask him what clubs to go to and if he would want to come with. He came to my line and asked us if we were having fun. I said always. Janelle goes, i have a question for you. He gave ME a weird look and i shrugged. He cut her off and goes, I thought i'd let you know that that girl i was trying to get with, Janelle goes, It didnt work out?! he says, no, It finally did. Looks and me and says never know how long it could last though. I go well Shit. That still leaves me in the cold.
When he left, Janelle felt really bad and i had that awful feeling in the back of my throat. I told her it wasnt a big deal. But the more i let it sink in, It is. I didn't cry over Rob. I'm crying over this though. He's still a good guy to talk to, He is interested, i still have a chance, and Like he said, never know how long it could last. it just, shitty day got a bit shittier. I had such big expectations of when he brought it up. Shot down. again.
I'm being so obnoxiously girly about this.
Tomorrow I'll chat with him, if he decided to grace my store with his presence. He still is an awesome guy. and i still like him. but I really have to stop limiting myself to LIKING one guy and just getting shit back.
Tomorrow should make up for all of this, and i think i'm only crying because it was too hot and too long of a night.
We're going to the game tomorrow, unless Emily calls and we get Ivy. Either way, it'll be a good day.
Later daze
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You know they put a man on the moon Simply to prove that we all need a place to go Where we're not known Where we're not And to a lesser degree I can recall breathing easy But the deficit rolls Built up I suppose Picking up the pieces Of another fucked up reason For selling of some freedom that was never free Well, never absolutly Never absolutly Made a mess out of me A killing machine Sometimes when I need them If I look hard enough to see them I can find my feet As I push against gravity In and out of having them been Led by defeat So one more time's all I need
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Life is like a mean machine It made a mess outta me It left me caught between Like an angry dream I was stranded And I'm steady but I'm starting to shake And I don't know how much more I can take This is it now Everybody get down This is all I can take This is how a heart breaks You take a hit now you feel it break down Make you stay wide awake This is how a heart breaks...I remember when you used to be shy Yeah, once we were so fine You and I why you gotta make it so hard on me And I'm sorry but it's not a mistake And I'm running but you're getting away...For all this hanging around It's just the same thing all the time Never get what I want Never get too close to the end of the line You're just the same thing that I knew back before the time
When he left, Janelle felt really bad and i had that awful feeling in the back of my throat. I told her it wasnt a big deal. But the more i let it sink in, It is. I didn't cry over Rob. I'm crying over this though. He's still a good guy to talk to, He is interested, i still have a chance, and Like he said, never know how long it could last. it just, shitty day got a bit shittier. I had such big expectations of when he brought it up. Shot down. again.
I'm being so obnoxiously girly about this.
Tomorrow I'll chat with him, if he decided to grace my store with his presence. He still is an awesome guy. and i still like him. but I really have to stop limiting myself to LIKING one guy and just getting shit back.
Tomorrow should make up for all of this, and i think i'm only crying because it was too hot and too long of a night.
We're going to the game tomorrow, unless Emily calls and we get Ivy. Either way, it'll be a good day.
Later daze
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You know they put a man on the moon Simply to prove that we all need a place to go Where we're not known Where we're not And to a lesser degree I can recall breathing easy But the deficit rolls Built up I suppose Picking up the pieces Of another fucked up reason For selling of some freedom that was never free Well, never absolutly Never absolutly Made a mess out of me A killing machine Sometimes when I need them If I look hard enough to see them I can find my feet As I push against gravity In and out of having them been Led by defeat So one more time's all I need
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Life is like a mean machine It made a mess outta me It left me caught between Like an angry dream I was stranded And I'm steady but I'm starting to shake And I don't know how much more I can take This is it now Everybody get down This is all I can take This is how a heart breaks You take a hit now you feel it break down Make you stay wide awake This is how a heart breaks...I remember when you used to be shy Yeah, once we were so fine You and I why you gotta make it so hard on me And I'm sorry but it's not a mistake And I'm running but you're getting away...For all this hanging around It's just the same thing all the time Never get what I want Never get too close to the end of the line You're just the same thing that I knew back before the time