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Had a lot of fun today. Barrel and Dustbunny...ah, fuck it! CJ and Dustin came over to my house and we walked around for about three hours. I had to lie to my dad and tell him that we were going to the gas station, and we ended up walking over to this park and hanging out under a bridge. It was really dirty, so Dustin took his shirt off and put it on the ground so I could sit on it.
Anyway, we were under there for about three minutes and Dustin and I started making out and he was feeling me a lot, which was really cool with me. (Of course, CJ didn't think it was all that brilliant and left us to go chill out on the slide a third of the way through.) I just loved being with Dustin and shit, it was really nice. He said he really liked it, too, and that was good to hear. He also said to me later that he was surprised I was okay with all of it.
Then we had to start heading back to my prison (or house, as you might call it). I could tell something was up with CJ, and he called me later and told me that he'd cut himself because he couldn't stand me being with a different guy. And what's so shitty about it is that he used on of my my old blades. (I had taped it to a scrapbook page I made for him where I had a bunch of things that associated themselves with me.) So I was like, "That's very flattering." So...I stopped myself from having a guilt trip because I figured it wouldn't help, though I feel bad because: One, I made him feel terrible. And two, I practically handed that fucking blade to him, thinking I could trust him. Fucking stupid.
Ummm...the one dude from Texas started fucking with all three of us today on VampireFreaks. Dustin went over to CJ's house and got on his name for a while, and the dude kept bitching and saying we were still together. So Dustin and CJ both told him to fuck off and I had to block him multiple times on there and MySpace. (He made a new name on VampireFreaks so he could comment and he said, "Don't try and ignore me, you can't get away." I was like, 'What the fuck?!') And I felt bad about the entire thing because I hate doing that to people, basically making them fuck off whether they want to or not. And it pissed us all off, especially Dustin.
My beloved Dustbunny boy got over it later and I told CJ to chill out and let it go. Everything seems to be going well. I'm not being harassed and life is pretty sweet, with the exception of a few issues here and there.
Anyway, we were under there for about three minutes and Dustin and I started making out and he was feeling me a lot, which was really cool with me. (Of course, CJ didn't think it was all that brilliant and left us to go chill out on the slide a third of the way through.) I just loved being with Dustin and shit, it was really nice. He said he really liked it, too, and that was good to hear. He also said to me later that he was surprised I was okay with all of it.
Then we had to start heading back to my prison (or house, as you might call it). I could tell something was up with CJ, and he called me later and told me that he'd cut himself because he couldn't stand me being with a different guy. And what's so shitty about it is that he used on of my my old blades. (I had taped it to a scrapbook page I made for him where I had a bunch of things that associated themselves with me.) So I was like, "That's very flattering." So...I stopped myself from having a guilt trip because I figured it wouldn't help, though I feel bad because: One, I made him feel terrible. And two, I practically handed that fucking blade to him, thinking I could trust him. Fucking stupid.
Ummm...the one dude from Texas started fucking with all three of us today on VampireFreaks. Dustin went over to CJ's house and got on his name for a while, and the dude kept bitching and saying we were still together. So Dustin and CJ both told him to fuck off and I had to block him multiple times on there and MySpace. (He made a new name on VampireFreaks so he could comment and he said, "Don't try and ignore me, you can't get away." I was like, 'What the fuck?!') And I felt bad about the entire thing because I hate doing that to people, basically making them fuck off whether they want to or not. And it pissed us all off, especially Dustin.
My beloved Dustbunny boy got over it later and I told CJ to chill out and let it go. Everything seems to be going well. I'm not being harassed and life is pretty sweet, with the exception of a few issues here and there.