Travis Enchilada
Ayeeeeeee okay well I was gonna wait to update with friggin pictures and shit but whatev I'll do that later.
I'M JUST SO FILLED WITH EMOTION.
Seriously, I don't know why. I'm such a child lately. A child that touches everything they see. In my case, everything I see is people. I just keep touching people I don't know why but I think it's just because I LOVE THEM. I just can't help but tell everyone i love them.
I've also been prone to crying lately. I've just been so touched and I just DON'T KNOW! I've cried all types of crying!
On friday, I cried because I saw basically my most hated thing--little black dots. Seriously, it just made me feel so ew and weird and I'm just cringing talking about it. And Lisa kept asking me how it made me feel and I just kept crying!! Gahhhh.
Also, at the kick-off party for cancerfest when the Cancer survivors made their speeches, I cried. I just felt so sad. I especially cried when Billy did his speech I just don't know!!! I never cry about cancer speeches! I just don't know.
I also basically almost cried out of happiness as well. Ms. Karen told me I was an amazing dancer and that I'm so hard on myself and I try to hide myself and she told me that even other people have been noticing my awesome dancing. And one of the 11 year olds said she remembered me from last year. And all of this just made me feel so good I was tearing and just restraining myself from crying.
And the other day, Glen told me I was the most interesting person he's ever talked to! And GOD! I love compliments like that.
And I've just been having a lot of fun lately!!! Just ~*cruisin'*~ and shit. There's nothing more to life than just chillin'. And just being with who your real friends are. I just really like when I become close friends with people, too.
And I'm just so crazy and I love to get hit on!! Wtf I'm so sluttly but whatev. Like today, this guy that worked at b&n and shit. I just love attention right now.
I've become obsessed with Guitar Hero. I cannot deal with not having a ps2! I'm crazy, I love video games.
My mother told me that she wanted to take me to a therapist. Out of all of her children, I'd rather her take kimmy for her friggin' anger management problema. But anyways, my mom was like, "you have problems, there's something wrong in your head, I'm taking you to a therapist". And I really just beg to differ!!! Everyone has probles and my only problems are her putting me down and calling me fat as well. So I was like "whatever, that'd be cool". Then she was like "YOU HAVE TO STOP DENYING YOUR PROBLEM, OKAY!" She's weird.
But if anything, I've gotten over my random disorders. I've become so much less obsessive compulsive, but I don't really like it. I forget to push in my chair, lock my door, etc. A couple of weeks ago, I went to Chevy's with Christine and I didn't eat my food half and half and from the middle. I didn't even realize until after I finished eating.
I had a dream the two nights ago where I was walking up through this airplane that on a slant. I stopped and I looked at a plate of breakfast. So I check the dream dictionary. It says that an airplane in dreams means a higher state of conciousness. Breakfast means a new stage in your life. And I was walking up the plane's slant. Therefore, I'm moving up towards a new stage in my life in which I am of higher conciousness. And I think that's what this whole emotion thing is about. It's just that, I was already so aware of my feelings to begin with.
Sigur Ros on saturday..... ah. I'm gonna cry with this extra emotion and all now.
I'M JUST SO FILLED WITH EMOTION.
Seriously, I don't know why. I'm such a child lately. A child that touches everything they see. In my case, everything I see is people. I just keep touching people I don't know why but I think it's just because I LOVE THEM. I just can't help but tell everyone i love them.
I've also been prone to crying lately. I've just been so touched and I just DON'T KNOW! I've cried all types of crying!
On friday, I cried because I saw basically my most hated thing--little black dots. Seriously, it just made me feel so ew and weird and I'm just cringing talking about it. And Lisa kept asking me how it made me feel and I just kept crying!! Gahhhh.
Also, at the kick-off party for cancerfest when the Cancer survivors made their speeches, I cried. I just felt so sad. I especially cried when Billy did his speech I just don't know!!! I never cry about cancer speeches! I just don't know.
I also basically almost cried out of happiness as well. Ms. Karen told me I was an amazing dancer and that I'm so hard on myself and I try to hide myself and she told me that even other people have been noticing my awesome dancing. And one of the 11 year olds said she remembered me from last year. And all of this just made me feel so good I was tearing and just restraining myself from crying.
And the other day, Glen told me I was the most interesting person he's ever talked to! And GOD! I love compliments like that.
And I've just been having a lot of fun lately!!! Just ~*cruisin'*~ and shit. There's nothing more to life than just chillin'. And just being with who your real friends are. I just really like when I become close friends with people, too.
And I'm just so crazy and I love to get hit on!! Wtf I'm so sluttly but whatev. Like today, this guy that worked at b&n and shit. I just love attention right now.
I've become obsessed with Guitar Hero. I cannot deal with not having a ps2! I'm crazy, I love video games.
My mother told me that she wanted to take me to a therapist. Out of all of her children, I'd rather her take kimmy for her friggin' anger management problema. But anyways, my mom was like, "you have problems, there's something wrong in your head, I'm taking you to a therapist". And I really just beg to differ!!! Everyone has probles and my only problems are her putting me down and calling me fat as well. So I was like "whatever, that'd be cool". Then she was like "YOU HAVE TO STOP DENYING YOUR PROBLEM, OKAY!" She's weird.
But if anything, I've gotten over my random disorders. I've become so much less obsessive compulsive, but I don't really like it. I forget to push in my chair, lock my door, etc. A couple of weeks ago, I went to Chevy's with Christine and I didn't eat my food half and half and from the middle. I didn't even realize until after I finished eating.
I had a dream the two nights ago where I was walking up through this airplane that on a slant. I stopped and I looked at a plate of breakfast. So I check the dream dictionary. It says that an airplane in dreams means a higher state of conciousness. Breakfast means a new stage in your life. And I was walking up the plane's slant. Therefore, I'm moving up towards a new stage in my life in which I am of higher conciousness. And I think that's what this whole emotion thing is about. It's just that, I was already so aware of my feelings to begin with.
Sigur Ros on saturday..... ah. I'm gonna cry with this extra emotion and all now.