What makes this so good.
Appreciative mush behind cut...
I am reminded how utterly, stupidly, wonderfully lucky I am. Catching up with family, hearing about other people's things, having people ask about my wedding or soulrefraction... all of these things made me think again how rare and beautiful this is. There have been one or two nights I've been too tired to think it, but those aside, I still go to bed feeling lucky every single night. I feel treasured.
He is stupidly busy, yes, but when he's here, he is fully here. He makes me feel special all the time. We have the most interesting discussions, challenge each other, support each other... so lucky. Last night during another interesting discussion I was thinking again that I love how he's brilliant without being arrogant (which is only a thin veil for insecurity). I have always intimidated people I'm with on one front or another- physical capability, social confidence, intellect... often all of the above. It felt imbalanced with other people. I felt compelled to shrink myself not to make someone feel bad, or (earlier) I just brazenly outshone them and let them fend for themselves.
I love having a true match. We each have our strengths, and they compliment each other well. Intellectually, we have different backgrounds but both are good at seeing the big picture. We can each offer the other new perspectives on our puzzles and projects. I love this. I love that he never needs to prove himself to me- he just knows who he is and is comfortable with that. I love that he celebrates my strengths without even wondering about "measuring up". I am so incredibly proud of him.
I love that he tells me when he needs something or if something bothers him. It's hardly ever happened, but knowing that he will lets me not have to baby-sit his feelings, walk on eggshells, etc. It's a kind of trust. Also, it means that things don't build up to become Issues. We just check in.
So... I'm very happy. People (who didn't know me very well and hadn't met him) kept asking me if I was scared or nervous about marriage, having any doubts, etc. Well.... no. It made me smile. I cannot imagine ever wanting to be without him. I cannot imagine someone being better for me. I never thought I would find something so wonderful. Yes, I am stressed over getting details done for wedding, but mostly I just feel utterly, stupidly fortunate.
I am reminded how utterly, stupidly, wonderfully lucky I am. Catching up with family, hearing about other people's things, having people ask about my wedding or soulrefraction... all of these things made me think again how rare and beautiful this is. There have been one or two nights I've been too tired to think it, but those aside, I still go to bed feeling lucky every single night. I feel treasured.
He is stupidly busy, yes, but when he's here, he is fully here. He makes me feel special all the time. We have the most interesting discussions, challenge each other, support each other... so lucky. Last night during another interesting discussion I was thinking again that I love how he's brilliant without being arrogant (which is only a thin veil for insecurity). I have always intimidated people I'm with on one front or another- physical capability, social confidence, intellect... often all of the above. It felt imbalanced with other people. I felt compelled to shrink myself not to make someone feel bad, or (earlier) I just brazenly outshone them and let them fend for themselves.
I love having a true match. We each have our strengths, and they compliment each other well. Intellectually, we have different backgrounds but both are good at seeing the big picture. We can each offer the other new perspectives on our puzzles and projects. I love this. I love that he never needs to prove himself to me- he just knows who he is and is comfortable with that. I love that he celebrates my strengths without even wondering about "measuring up". I am so incredibly proud of him.
I love that he tells me when he needs something or if something bothers him. It's hardly ever happened, but knowing that he will lets me not have to baby-sit his feelings, walk on eggshells, etc. It's a kind of trust. Also, it means that things don't build up to become Issues. We just check in.
So... I'm very happy. People (who didn't know me very well and hadn't met him) kept asking me if I was scared or nervous about marriage, having any doubts, etc. Well.... no. It made me smile. I cannot imagine ever wanting to be without him. I cannot imagine someone being better for me. I never thought I would find something so wonderful. Yes, I am stressed over getting details done for wedding, but mostly I just feel utterly, stupidly fortunate.