Steven Kyllo
This week mark the one year since the death of my brother.
There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about him. Usually it's something funny that happens that I want to tell him about, something I know he would have loved to see or hear about. He absolutely was one of the greatest men I have ever known. Anyone that knew him would tell you exactly the same.
Most of you that know me, know that this last year after his death was a very bad year for me. My grief came out so sideways and weird, and in ways I never expected. I can't explain it, or analyze it, nor do I want to. It was just a very self destructive year. Anyways, I seem to now be on the road to the right track. Everything seems to be going so great, almost a direct 360 from a year ago. I think a year ago I was just coasting and it took something like that for me to just bottom out and start the trek back uphill. I have a tremendous family, and we stuck together through it all. Also, thank you to my friends who helped me this year and stuck by me in some really icky times, you know who you are. There were a few people who made the year 100% worse by being selfish, non-understanding asses, and to you I say from the bottom of my heart, fuck you. What goes around comes around, and some day it will all come back to you.
One of the good things that came out of this year is my relationship with my sister. We are as close as we have ever been. She is a tremendous, tremendous lady, and my best friend. I don't know what I would do without her.
This year is going to be a stellar year, and a year to be proud of. I have a few things I still need to take care of, but all is well. I'm better now than I ever have been.
So, to my big brother Steve, I miss you terribly, and think of you always. I love you.
This is my brother and sis a week before his death. He always wanted to ride in the weinermobile. That, was just his humor, and part of what made him so great.
There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about him. Usually it's something funny that happens that I want to tell him about, something I know he would have loved to see or hear about. He absolutely was one of the greatest men I have ever known. Anyone that knew him would tell you exactly the same.
Most of you that know me, know that this last year after his death was a very bad year for me. My grief came out so sideways and weird, and in ways I never expected. I can't explain it, or analyze it, nor do I want to. It was just a very self destructive year. Anyways, I seem to now be on the road to the right track. Everything seems to be going so great, almost a direct 360 from a year ago. I think a year ago I was just coasting and it took something like that for me to just bottom out and start the trek back uphill. I have a tremendous family, and we stuck together through it all. Also, thank you to my friends who helped me this year and stuck by me in some really icky times, you know who you are. There were a few people who made the year 100% worse by being selfish, non-understanding asses, and to you I say from the bottom of my heart, fuck you. What goes around comes around, and some day it will all come back to you.
One of the good things that came out of this year is my relationship with my sister. We are as close as we have ever been. She is a tremendous, tremendous lady, and my best friend. I don't know what I would do without her.
This year is going to be a stellar year, and a year to be proud of. I have a few things I still need to take care of, but all is well. I'm better now than I ever have been.
So, to my big brother Steve, I miss you terribly, and think of you always. I love you.
This is my brother and sis a week before his death. He always wanted to ride in the weinermobile. That, was just his humor, and part of what made him so great.