More of me ...with alot of details

[thoughtwasspot]

Ah well the rest of 2003 ...he called me a few days later and we talked and we became best freinds...we talked about everything and nuthing and he made me totally forget about Covin lol we talked for about 4 months until he tells me that things are starting to happen between him and this gurl hes known for 5 years...yea i cried that nite....anyways we didnt really talk and that may camp was really werid he tried to talk to me but i had no words...it hurt...and exactly a week later he called me and asked me out (june 1st 2003 @ 9:34 pm) im not obsessd i just happened to write it down lol anyways he next few months were awesome me and him called almost everynight and i must admit we fell in love...(maybe just puppy love at first ...but over time it got better) next time i saw him was in november and we hugged and tried to hang out as much as possible (a little akward i guess) i just wanted to hold on to him and nerver let go...we danced...once again he had to drag me lol ...and we ended up sitting together in a corner talking it was fun other than i was so nervouse i wanted to barf and he was sick to lol ....bummer...camp went well and in december my dad got a family cell phone so i could call him alot more...i thought things were going perfect but i guess not...a week away from being 7 months ...he decided we would go on a “break” (and so it began!!) we were on “break” for 1 month and 2 weeks (just recently found out he dated a girl during OUR break grrr) and hen he asked me out again...we were once again “together” ....for a week and i was dumped on valentines day 2004...(talk about heart broken!) we didnt talk for a very long time and i attempted to go out with my best friend Justin that lasted not so long (the whole time he was aware that i still wanted paul and we broke it off) and when they say going out will ruin a freindship...ITS TRUE!!! (we never talk anymore i miss Justin) and so may church camp came and me and him barely talked prolly becuz he was hanging out with this chic from Germany nonstop (grrr) he went and started living in akansas just a few more hundred miles away i guess (he did live in oklahoma) he started working and living wih his brother...thats when i decided to contact him again...all these months he thought us being apart was mutual (oh yea like i loved being not able to talk to him!) we talked alot more and became freinds once again ...even closer this tie he told me how he had started falling into alot of crap and how he was in love wih the germany chic (once again i was hearbroken but soo happy he was talking to me!) everything was going pretty good for another few months then he movd back to oklahoma ..on his own he got nto an appartment with toben and we got c loser once again...he finally got over the germamny chic and i guess we made it clear we were in Love despite all circumstances and he met me at november 2004 church camp he wasnt attending (which was weird) but he did give me a nice long hug and then left he said he would be there one the last day of camp (this is also when i met Cole) camp was ok i guess i ... first time i couldt wait for it to be over...i wanted to see Toby!! ahh last day and there he was ...i didnt cling to him and i let him say hi to all his other friends becuz i knew id get him all nite ...My parents and sister and Orion and me were staying the night at a near by camp ground ...and we would start our roadtrip home the next morning but for the evening i got Toby!...(yay for me) on the way to the campground Orion sat across from me and i sat RIGHT next to Toby...we held hands and got really close (my mom was trying not to look and my dad was eyeballing me from the rearview mirror) anyways we got there and we ate and it was soo cold outside i was so worried id be stuck in an RV with Toby and my family!!!! ahh....but Orion Toby and me went outside and somehow got a fire started and then she went inside and everyone watched a movie while me and him sat by the fire it was cold and rainy but it was such a good time...i even got my first kiss! (MWAH!) only like 5 seconds because we both didnt want to get caught lol ...and after a while his freinds showed up to take him home and i went to sleep in a blissful daze thanking Orion and how she somehow kept my family occupied lol
and you will get the rest of november (good stuff) and i will take you up to current times ...
till then
Love, Spot