GAME OVER.
Disappointment reigns supreme. My team lost tonight and so my season is over. Finito. Done forever. And I'm sad. Next year I have to play in the women's league instead of with a whole bunch of people who are fairly close to me in age. That's partly what's causing my sadness. Also, I played as well as I possibly could. I gave a lot of what I had (not everything, but very close to it) and I made very few mistakes. I wanted to win so badly and it just didn't happen. Without intending to brag, I was told by many people that I played the best tonight of everyone on the team, and I was only taken off the field for maybe 10 minutes in the game which runs 90 minutes. Usually I'm the first one to call out to Henry, asking to come off, but tonight I was completely pumped, motivated and ready to play. I only felt tired at one point during the game, and that went away fairly quickly. I gave it my all, but it just didn't matter in the end. Well, Henry gave me a hug after some of the players had already drifted away and told Mindy and Jenny (teammates) that I was his favourite because I was "just so nice." That meant a lot to me, as has his dedication as a coach these past 3 years. Why do I get so attached to people? I wish I could let go a bit easier, but I tend to want to grasp onto the things I love and never let go. Like Mindy...I'm going to be busy once school starts again and I'm afraid I won't see her much after that. And the same goes for all of you who are going off to different schools. I just want to grab hold of the whole lot of you and take you with me everywhere I go. Yes, I am that selfish. I don't want things to change. I could live the past few years of my life (including the depression) over and over again and be completely happy forever. All of you who read this, thank you so much for your constant support, friendship and personalities. You've helped me grow in more ways than you would believe. I don't like to think about it because it makes me emotional and that's uncomfortable in excess.