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I'm having one of "those moments". You know, the moments where you just want to get into your car and leave everything behind? I have this fantasy of getting into my car and driving to New Mexico or Arizona (ala The Bean Trees) and starting over. I get so fed-up here. I hate Chicago....okay I don't hate Chicago but I am so sick of city life. I really hate it. I want to live in a small town where you build relationships with your neighbors and get involved in your community. I want county fairs and farmers markets, high school football games and diners. My BF will not move. He doesn't want to leave the city. I don't know why, we never do anything. Its not like we drive into Chicago for the theater or concerts or museums or ANYTHING. You can sit on your ass and play World of Warcraft all day anywhere! Why does it have to be here. I feel so stressed out all the time. It just all seems so...never ending...
And I'm so unhappy.
And I'm so unhappy.