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Dear friends,
I am sorry. There are a lot of things that you all don't like or are misunderstood about me. So let me explain: just because I have the dispostion of being angry doesn't mean that AM angry. I am a lot tougher than you think. You can talk to me and come to me if you have a problem with me. I am not always a Drama Queen, you all automatically assume I will be angry with you and not speak to. Though, I have not spoken to some of you (past or present)it is because I feel some of you hate me. Therefore, I choose not to talk to you because I feel as though you do hate me. Moreover, I know I come across as a bitch, but sometimes that is the only way I can handle my anger/crushed feelings. I do this so I can keep myself from falling to pieces. Sometimes in my head I think that by being strong is being a bitch and not letting things get me down. (Stupid, I know) I have been faced with alot even within the past week that noone really knows about and that is probably no excuse for my behavior, but it might explain my not so great demeanor. I have alot on me right now and by not exposing my raw sensitive feelings I can better cope with things if I don't let things get me down the way they did before. With that being said, I hope you all will forgive me--the mean looks I might give, and well the fact that I am a mean person. I will work harder on not being a bitter, heart-less bitch.
Much love,
eliza
I am sorry. There are a lot of things that you all don't like or are misunderstood about me. So let me explain: just because I have the dispostion of being angry doesn't mean that AM angry. I am a lot tougher than you think. You can talk to me and come to me if you have a problem with me. I am not always a Drama Queen, you all automatically assume I will be angry with you and not speak to. Though, I have not spoken to some of you (past or present)it is because I feel some of you hate me. Therefore, I choose not to talk to you because I feel as though you do hate me. Moreover, I know I come across as a bitch, but sometimes that is the only way I can handle my anger/crushed feelings. I do this so I can keep myself from falling to pieces. Sometimes in my head I think that by being strong is being a bitch and not letting things get me down. (Stupid, I know) I have been faced with alot even within the past week that noone really knows about and that is probably no excuse for my behavior, but it might explain my not so great demeanor. I have alot on me right now and by not exposing my raw sensitive feelings I can better cope with things if I don't let things get me down the way they did before. With that being said, I hope you all will forgive me--the mean looks I might give, and well the fact that I am a mean person. I will work harder on not being a bitter, heart-less bitch.
Much love,
eliza