I'm lame.
I don't ever know what to write because I never know what I'll actually keep. Kayle made me terribly depressed today and I think that's a good thing. Instead of being bored I can sit in my room and wallow. It'll be just like the old days. I keep telling myself I'm better without him especially since he's been treating me like this but I know that's not true. That's just automatically what I do so I won't get hurt. That's my problem you see. I try to justify my emotions. I'l talk myself out of what I really feel because I'm a chicken. I catch myself doing it all the time. However a persons emotions aren't that simple. I know this and I'm trying to be empathetic but hey I'm lame.