May 04, 2005 13:36
Well this is new. I today I guess I am counting down my days until I am sort of expecting to start this huge college thing. I am sort of scared but not really. One can only take disdain, and "the runt" M.O., for so long before one does something. I am in a discussion with a guy to buy this car that I think is a beauty. Just a step closer to becoming more of an acceptable canidate of society. Let's face it girls can't understand a guy who can't get himself somewhere. If this all goes through then I have one less thing to worry about. Soon I will want to make ready to move out on my own. I am having second thoughts though on a career. Being an engineer has some admiring thoughts but I keep thinking about a pyschologist. (If that isn't spelled right, then...well...that's too bad) Maybe as the years go by the I will understand but as for right now I really don't have a clue. It is sort of sad, you know. I have yet to decide and by the time that I really get anywhere then I will be in my twenties. That is a scary thought.
Hey just two years and i will decide where I want to go for my end of my major. I am heading to durham tech for right now and then after that it might be west to San Diego and Cali, my home or still out here in this Godforsaken land of North Carolina. I think the only things that will change my mind are: a woman, a change in major or my brother. For now though I will think of nothing more than this car deal and arranging a beach camping trip before all of the people I know go home for the summer. Girls are funny creatures. They hunt for guys that bad ass but make friends with the ones that are just good guys. Ahhh well... I guess some things of beauty are not meant to be reckoned with rather admired and taken in stride.
Well I got to clean my room because I went frantic searching for my wallet and keys. My brother had taken them and put them on the table upstairs. Siblings are a real curse sometimes. The one thing a parent can do to eternally piss off their offspring, sometimes, is expand the family... Catch ya on da flipside....