The occasional truths found in... the truth.
On the other hand....
I love candice. and I love kevin. and I wish that neither of them had to go through what they're going through right now. I just hope they know they both always have people [ moi included ] who love them no matter WHAT may happen. thank god they still realize they can be there for each other. ya just gotta have faith - in yourselves, in the feeling that things will someday turn out better than you think. it works.
it's been a while since vic and I spoke.. and I really hope we can see each other before I leave. I actually ran into his sister at ihop yesterday. I passed her 3 times before I noticed. and she was sweet, which is a relief... cause I had thought her and vic would've bonded over shitty relationship stuff and she'd hate me cause he hated me. so I really wanna say goodbye to his family... they were really good to me. and I have to say goodbye to him. yanno, I think of him at the silliest things. we were eating ice cream sandwiches the other day, and I remembered how it always hurt his teeth.. and I remembered last summer when.. when we were eating a pint and when his mom noticed we both had chocolate smudged on our knuckles and exclaimed that we were meant to be together. and putting on perfume, I was reminded of homecoming and... they're memories. good memories. memories I now fondly reminisce rather than feel pain from. shit happens. I should hate him... but.. as I explained to candice... "eh, it's hard to hate someone you care(d) about so much... like, as much respect as I lost for vic b/c of how he handled things and all the crap he put me thru...... I really never ever want to hurt him. I'll do anything to keep something there in friendship, b/c it'd just kill to.... it'd kill." to lose him. he wasn't just someone I told everything to. he was someone I share everything with. he wasn't just some random hook-up. he was someone with whom I shared everything we possibly could. ok, wow this is longer than I thought... I just hope I see him before I leave, that's all. and I hope that's not the last time I ever see him. I hope he hopes the same. and that.. is all.
I love candice. and I love kevin. and I wish that neither of them had to go through what they're going through right now. I just hope they know they both always have people [ moi included ] who love them no matter WHAT may happen. thank god they still realize they can be there for each other. ya just gotta have faith - in yourselves, in the feeling that things will someday turn out better than you think. it works.
it's been a while since vic and I spoke.. and I really hope we can see each other before I leave. I actually ran into his sister at ihop yesterday. I passed her 3 times before I noticed. and she was sweet, which is a relief... cause I had thought her and vic would've bonded over shitty relationship stuff and she'd hate me cause he hated me. so I really wanna say goodbye to his family... they were really good to me. and I have to say goodbye to him. yanno, I think of him at the silliest things. we were eating ice cream sandwiches the other day, and I remembered how it always hurt his teeth.. and I remembered last summer when.. when we were eating a pint and when his mom noticed we both had chocolate smudged on our knuckles and exclaimed that we were meant to be together. and putting on perfume, I was reminded of homecoming and... they're memories. good memories. memories I now fondly reminisce rather than feel pain from. shit happens. I should hate him... but.. as I explained to candice... "eh, it's hard to hate someone you care(d) about so much... like, as much respect as I lost for vic b/c of how he handled things and all the crap he put me thru...... I really never ever want to hurt him. I'll do anything to keep something there in friendship, b/c it'd just kill to.... it'd kill." to lose him. he wasn't just someone I told everything to. he was someone I share everything with. he wasn't just some random hook-up. he was someone with whom I shared everything we possibly could. ok, wow this is longer than I thought... I just hope I see him before I leave, that's all. and I hope that's not the last time I ever see him. I hope he hopes the same. and that.. is all.