She was a rock skipping across rain puddles full of summer living in the small seconds she touched
the surface with a splash.
Feeling incoherent, living quickly watching days and days go by, not belonging anywhere but inside myself alone needing home and comfort and someone I can't never seem to get. A irreplaceable capacity for missing things that never gets filled up full and goes away but always the object of desire changes conspiring to never get me to the end to fufillment or nirvana. People are having a hard winter all over this country maybe humans were meant to hibernate sleep is a drug I wish I'd never tried. Some large creature is rolling me around on it's lolling tounge of time like an earthquake is displacing me, it seems to speed up and go ridiculously fast when I'm not looking and slow to an inch when examined closely I loose whole afternoons this way and wake up at the end of a nap trying to gather and regain this sense of time back inside me like some lost intestine. I haven't not been in school since kindergarten I need to start building something quick I didn't know how much like a zombie working day-jobs made you I need my own thoughts back in my head.
I am filled with steady wonderment and longing at the world around me and I am done trying to figure out why & ready to just enjoy it.
Feeling incoherent, living quickly watching days and days go by, not belonging anywhere but inside myself alone needing home and comfort and someone I can't never seem to get. A irreplaceable capacity for missing things that never gets filled up full and goes away but always the object of desire changes conspiring to never get me to the end to fufillment or nirvana. People are having a hard winter all over this country maybe humans were meant to hibernate sleep is a drug I wish I'd never tried. Some large creature is rolling me around on it's lolling tounge of time like an earthquake is displacing me, it seems to speed up and go ridiculously fast when I'm not looking and slow to an inch when examined closely I loose whole afternoons this way and wake up at the end of a nap trying to gather and regain this sense of time back inside me like some lost intestine. I haven't not been in school since kindergarten I need to start building something quick I didn't know how much like a zombie working day-jobs made you I need my own thoughts back in my head.
I am filled with steady wonderment and longing at the world around me and I am done trying to figure out why & ready to just enjoy it.