Wait, I still have LJ??? jk
I shall start off by stating the obvious... I haven't written in my LJ in a long time...
I just came back from poms practice. We're getting ready for the Windsor parade in Canada which is Dec. 3rd, and it's at night. We're going to have light up poms, and sweet uniforms... Not to mention I get to spend the night and go out and party. I'm actually excited! Today was really a personal test for me... Let me explain... I had to work tonight like I do every Tuesday, and then I rush around and somehow make it to practice at 9pm. Anyway, when I got out of practice I found out that my two good friends, (Angie, and Sarah Zahn), weren't going to be at practice because they're already home. I was actually thinking about skipping just for that reason, but then I decided nah... I'll go. I went, and had to lead my line (usually my team captain is in front of me, but she wasn't there, and neither were the two girls that were behind me). It was like I was on a stage for everyone, which really made me uncomfortable. Basically, it was a true test to whether or not I knew the moves to the routine. I did, and I got complimented on it. Makes me feel like I proved/over came something. Feels good.
My grades are going to suck this semester. I have D's in pretty much everything. I pray to God I can bring them up to at least a C. I don't understand why this happens because I try so hard... This is exactly why I'm changing my major- I'm just not cut out to be a business person.
I have a sort of boyfriend type of character. Not really. He just plays that role in some ways. We make out a lot, hang out, but we also work together. I like him, but not as much as he likes me. We have like good physical chemistry (meaning making out with him is fantastic). However, there is this other guy that I have a thing for. Not really sure why, but I do. He is so innocent, and has never even kissed a girl. I think the reason is because he is very stupid. Such a nice guy though. I kind of want to be that girl who is his first kiss. I don't want to really be a player though, and be making out with both of them. There is no way that either of them would find out about the other, but it would make me feel guilty. I can't decide which one I want because when I'm alone with one of them I just like them so much, and then when I'm around the other I like that one a lot. Oh well... Suggestions?
Lone Star has been better. I'm actually bringing home between 50-70 on a normal night. Over Christmas break I'll probably be transferring to Bay City's Lone Star again just so I can make some cash for the rest of the school year.
I need to figure out my living situation for next year. It's hard because my parents were in agreement that I should live alone, and that they would help me only if I lived alone. I kind of like the idea of living alone because it would be quiet, I could decorate the way I want, and I wouldn't have to deal with roomie issues. Then again, I'd be so lonely. We all know how I need to be entertained. Now, my Dad is saying how I should have one roomie. Well, I can't find just one, and I don't know of anyone that doesn't already have living arrangements. Also, my Mom still wants me to live alone. I found a complex that I should check into either way... It's like 4 or 5 blocks from the North end of campus (within walking distance so I wouldn't have to buy a $150/semester parking pass). It has two bedrooms, a bathroom, living room, and kitchen. Also, it can be furnished at no cost to me, free cable/ internet, and I have to check into other stuff. It's so hard to think about all of this, and I sort of have to because I need to sign a lease like soon.
I didn't tell anyone this before because I was sort of not ashamed, but embarrassed I guess... My Mom actually married that dude Bob. She is now Mrs. Robert Gaines. So, I have a step-dad, step-brother, and step-sister. Good stuff I guess. It's hard to think about because holidays are coming up, and this is the first time I'll have had to deal with my parents not being together... For Thanksgiving I'll be at my Mom's, but I feel bad about leaving my Dad on the holiday. I'm not a fan of holidays for this reason I guess. I'm not excited for Christmas at all...
I'm going to apologize in advance if I don't see my friends from at home over Thanksgiving break. I have a lot of homework, including a very large project that is due the day I get back. It's going to be rough, and not much of a break.
Next semester I am taking a drawing class, a design class, and a photography class. I'm very excited about all of them. I'm also taking sports physics, and religion, race, and discrimination. Good stuff. Very excited about the art classes though. Finally something to be excited about!
Anyway, it's time to finish packing, do some homework, and get ready for bed... Only to wake up bright and early and head back to Essexville! YAY!
Much <3
I just came back from poms practice. We're getting ready for the Windsor parade in Canada which is Dec. 3rd, and it's at night. We're going to have light up poms, and sweet uniforms... Not to mention I get to spend the night and go out and party. I'm actually excited! Today was really a personal test for me... Let me explain... I had to work tonight like I do every Tuesday, and then I rush around and somehow make it to practice at 9pm. Anyway, when I got out of practice I found out that my two good friends, (Angie, and Sarah Zahn), weren't going to be at practice because they're already home. I was actually thinking about skipping just for that reason, but then I decided nah... I'll go. I went, and had to lead my line (usually my team captain is in front of me, but she wasn't there, and neither were the two girls that were behind me). It was like I was on a stage for everyone, which really made me uncomfortable. Basically, it was a true test to whether or not I knew the moves to the routine. I did, and I got complimented on it. Makes me feel like I proved/over came something. Feels good.
My grades are going to suck this semester. I have D's in pretty much everything. I pray to God I can bring them up to at least a C. I don't understand why this happens because I try so hard... This is exactly why I'm changing my major- I'm just not cut out to be a business person.
I have a sort of boyfriend type of character. Not really. He just plays that role in some ways. We make out a lot, hang out, but we also work together. I like him, but not as much as he likes me. We have like good physical chemistry (meaning making out with him is fantastic). However, there is this other guy that I have a thing for. Not really sure why, but I do. He is so innocent, and has never even kissed a girl. I think the reason is because he is very stupid. Such a nice guy though. I kind of want to be that girl who is his first kiss. I don't want to really be a player though, and be making out with both of them. There is no way that either of them would find out about the other, but it would make me feel guilty. I can't decide which one I want because when I'm alone with one of them I just like them so much, and then when I'm around the other I like that one a lot. Oh well... Suggestions?
Lone Star has been better. I'm actually bringing home between 50-70 on a normal night. Over Christmas break I'll probably be transferring to Bay City's Lone Star again just so I can make some cash for the rest of the school year.
I need to figure out my living situation for next year. It's hard because my parents were in agreement that I should live alone, and that they would help me only if I lived alone. I kind of like the idea of living alone because it would be quiet, I could decorate the way I want, and I wouldn't have to deal with roomie issues. Then again, I'd be so lonely. We all know how I need to be entertained. Now, my Dad is saying how I should have one roomie. Well, I can't find just one, and I don't know of anyone that doesn't already have living arrangements. Also, my Mom still wants me to live alone. I found a complex that I should check into either way... It's like 4 or 5 blocks from the North end of campus (within walking distance so I wouldn't have to buy a $150/semester parking pass). It has two bedrooms, a bathroom, living room, and kitchen. Also, it can be furnished at no cost to me, free cable/ internet, and I have to check into other stuff. It's so hard to think about all of this, and I sort of have to because I need to sign a lease like soon.
I didn't tell anyone this before because I was sort of not ashamed, but embarrassed I guess... My Mom actually married that dude Bob. She is now Mrs. Robert Gaines. So, I have a step-dad, step-brother, and step-sister. Good stuff I guess. It's hard to think about because holidays are coming up, and this is the first time I'll have had to deal with my parents not being together... For Thanksgiving I'll be at my Mom's, but I feel bad about leaving my Dad on the holiday. I'm not a fan of holidays for this reason I guess. I'm not excited for Christmas at all...
I'm going to apologize in advance if I don't see my friends from at home over Thanksgiving break. I have a lot of homework, including a very large project that is due the day I get back. It's going to be rough, and not much of a break.
Next semester I am taking a drawing class, a design class, and a photography class. I'm very excited about all of them. I'm also taking sports physics, and religion, race, and discrimination. Good stuff. Very excited about the art classes though. Finally something to be excited about!
Anyway, it's time to finish packing, do some homework, and get ready for bed... Only to wake up bright and early and head back to Essexville! YAY!
Much <3