long time no see
i havent written in this thing in a long ass time.
i suck at school right now. i have all D's. not good. it's probably because i honestly focus too much on other things. "class gets in the way of my college experience."
i party now at least twice a week and cant get out of the habbit. i cant study worth a crap because i have no attention span. i dont know what to do because i've never gotten bad grades before. at least i have time to bring them up... hopefully.
work has been all right. i met a boy there and totally played him hardcore. i feel bad. after hanging out with him like 5 times i honestly didnt feel a connection, and he seemed to come on too strong. i told him i was uncertain about how i felt, and that i liked being single. he told jessica (my roomie) i was sending him mixed signals. the point is if there was a possiblity of our relationship turning into something romantic my behavior killed that.
dance this year should be fun because it's a small team full of my friends, and we get to make our own mix with the songs we pick, make our dance, and pick our uniform and names. it'll be a blast i'm sure of it!
i've been extremely scatterbrained this school year. i dont know what i want/need anymore. i'm thinking about changing my major completely, but to what i know not. i dont know what i enjoy or could see myself doing in the future.
at this point in time i cant even see myself finishing college, but i know i have to. i just wish there was some way where i could actually enjoy my classes instead of dreading every moment of them, and hoping that i pass them. i honestly suck at math, and what was i thinking when i said i wanted to go into a business career. i just dont know what i want to do.
i dont like going home anymore, but it's okay if my parents come to visit. soon it's going to be thanksgiving, and i ahve to choose where to spend my holiday.. then it's christmas..the new year... i feel so alone sometimes.
i suck at school right now. i have all D's. not good. it's probably because i honestly focus too much on other things. "class gets in the way of my college experience."
i party now at least twice a week and cant get out of the habbit. i cant study worth a crap because i have no attention span. i dont know what to do because i've never gotten bad grades before. at least i have time to bring them up... hopefully.
work has been all right. i met a boy there and totally played him hardcore. i feel bad. after hanging out with him like 5 times i honestly didnt feel a connection, and he seemed to come on too strong. i told him i was uncertain about how i felt, and that i liked being single. he told jessica (my roomie) i was sending him mixed signals. the point is if there was a possiblity of our relationship turning into something romantic my behavior killed that.
dance this year should be fun because it's a small team full of my friends, and we get to make our own mix with the songs we pick, make our dance, and pick our uniform and names. it'll be a blast i'm sure of it!
i've been extremely scatterbrained this school year. i dont know what i want/need anymore. i'm thinking about changing my major completely, but to what i know not. i dont know what i enjoy or could see myself doing in the future.
at this point in time i cant even see myself finishing college, but i know i have to. i just wish there was some way where i could actually enjoy my classes instead of dreading every moment of them, and hoping that i pass them. i honestly suck at math, and what was i thinking when i said i wanted to go into a business career. i just dont know what i want to do.
i dont like going home anymore, but it's okay if my parents come to visit. soon it's going to be thanksgiving, and i ahve to choose where to spend my holiday.. then it's christmas..the new year... i feel so alone sometimes.