I'm a sober idiot.

[thorfox2]

Jim is mad at me because i danced with drew. i reassured him that it meant nothing at all, however, i can understand why he would be mad at me because i know i would be mad at him if he did something like this. i'm a very jealous person when it comes to this stuff so i should have thought about what i was doing beforehand. saying that it meant nothing really doesn't justify my actions, and i can't say enough how sorry i am. jim will never know how much he means to me, and i doubt he'll trust me after this. he doesn't have anything to worry about though... i feel just awful. even if jim did break up with me i wouldnt go for drew because he isnt exactly the kind of guy i'd date. i highly doubt we'll break up over this because i believe we have a strong relationship, and can get passed anything. we've been going out for 9 months so i wouldn't want to throw that away over something as silly as me dancing with a boy. i am sorry though. i didn't mean to hurt him... i cant even talk to him though because he is in florida. this sucks.

i hope i never have to know the feeling of losing the first person i've fallen in love with because of a stupid mistake on my part.

i cant say it enough... i love you jim.