Mmmmm......Mornin Sunshine!
Wow my breath stinks in the morning...whew buddy. Guess thats why you brush at night and in the morning.
Whew quiet house with nothing to do but update my journal. I woke up this morning in a ceratin mood. DOnt know what brought it on but you hear me moan about this all the time so here we go.
I miss playing music...No No No i play it all the time but with a band i mean. More than anything. I miss those days when it was all about the next show and getting the word out and i had an objective to get as many kids at the show as possible. I miss those days so much. And its so frustrating being caught here in a place where i cant do anything knowing that if i had a full band behind me id be working my ass off for them. College, Modeling, Little Rock, id throw it all out the door. Believe me.
Sigh...its still my passion in life people. And other people may get burnt out on it and everything but i love it, every single moment. Like okay...so much so that i feel that everything im doing right now is just to keep me occupied until i find a band. (When i say that i dont mean friendships and things like that i mean work, school, and stuff like that. I love you people too much to say something like that! C'mon!)
But yea its driving me crazy. As long as i got Matt with me im good to go. Its been he and I since i cant even remember when and if i dont have him im not going. Even if another band asked me to play bass for them i would keep my obligation to matt. Because if it werent for him then i wouldnn't have even entered the music scene at all. SO i owe just about it all to him.
Yea i miss it. And even more frustrating? I dont even know if i want to look for people here in in little rock to make a band. Because i honestly dont know how long ill actually be here and the potential for members in fayetteville is much higher than that of Little Rock...Cause the scene down here is downright miserable. Believe me. I know.
And whats ironic about all of this is that you would never suspect someone like me to be into punk/hardcore/and emo. Why? Well think about it genius...I work at Abercrombie which is the conformist store numero uno. And i model on the side? Psh! But believe me i love the punk/hardcore scene just as much as anyone. I may wear abercrombie but when i got to shows i will scream and sweat JUST as much as you. The music is what defines me end of story.
Sorry, just kinda had to get that out. I picked up two great CD's the other day one is a band called Senses Fail and Silverstein's ReRelease of their incredible album "When Broken is Easily Fixed". I highly suggest you pick up both of these up. Especially Silversteins because im good friends with those guys and they are just all around great guys. Ill tell you how i got to know them some other day but boy was it something.
Last night was great Stephanie and I went to go see Jerry Seinfeld Live and lemme tell you. Hes just amazing, hes is the one of the greatest standup comedians i know. And he came up with stuff off of the top of his head tonight that was just hilarious. He really is a genius and Steph and i had a great time. (Even though it took us like an extra hour to get out of the parking deck)
Thats all i can think of for now. This weekend will be the first uneventful weekend ive had in awhile. Not that it wont be eventful its just nothing big is planned so...You know....we'll see how it goes.
"Will I lie to myself to make myself happy? In this case Teddy, yes...yes i will."
-From the Movie Memento
(And if you havent seen it do yourself the honor of renting it. If you like psycological movies that you like to sit and think about for days then this movie is right up your ass)
Whew quiet house with nothing to do but update my journal. I woke up this morning in a ceratin mood. DOnt know what brought it on but you hear me moan about this all the time so here we go.
I miss playing music...No No No i play it all the time but with a band i mean. More than anything. I miss those days when it was all about the next show and getting the word out and i had an objective to get as many kids at the show as possible. I miss those days so much. And its so frustrating being caught here in a place where i cant do anything knowing that if i had a full band behind me id be working my ass off for them. College, Modeling, Little Rock, id throw it all out the door. Believe me.
Sigh...its still my passion in life people. And other people may get burnt out on it and everything but i love it, every single moment. Like okay...so much so that i feel that everything im doing right now is just to keep me occupied until i find a band. (When i say that i dont mean friendships and things like that i mean work, school, and stuff like that. I love you people too much to say something like that! C'mon!)
But yea its driving me crazy. As long as i got Matt with me im good to go. Its been he and I since i cant even remember when and if i dont have him im not going. Even if another band asked me to play bass for them i would keep my obligation to matt. Because if it werent for him then i wouldnn't have even entered the music scene at all. SO i owe just about it all to him.
Yea i miss it. And even more frustrating? I dont even know if i want to look for people here in in little rock to make a band. Because i honestly dont know how long ill actually be here and the potential for members in fayetteville is much higher than that of Little Rock...Cause the scene down here is downright miserable. Believe me. I know.
And whats ironic about all of this is that you would never suspect someone like me to be into punk/hardcore/and emo. Why? Well think about it genius...I work at Abercrombie which is the conformist store numero uno. And i model on the side? Psh! But believe me i love the punk/hardcore scene just as much as anyone. I may wear abercrombie but when i got to shows i will scream and sweat JUST as much as you. The music is what defines me end of story.
Sorry, just kinda had to get that out. I picked up two great CD's the other day one is a band called Senses Fail and Silverstein's ReRelease of their incredible album "When Broken is Easily Fixed". I highly suggest you pick up both of these up. Especially Silversteins because im good friends with those guys and they are just all around great guys. Ill tell you how i got to know them some other day but boy was it something.
Last night was great Stephanie and I went to go see Jerry Seinfeld Live and lemme tell you. Hes just amazing, hes is the one of the greatest standup comedians i know. And he came up with stuff off of the top of his head tonight that was just hilarious. He really is a genius and Steph and i had a great time. (Even though it took us like an extra hour to get out of the parking deck)
Thats all i can think of for now. This weekend will be the first uneventful weekend ive had in awhile. Not that it wont be eventful its just nothing big is planned so...You know....we'll see how it goes.
"Will I lie to myself to make myself happy? In this case Teddy, yes...yes i will."
-From the Movie Memento
(And if you havent seen it do yourself the honor of renting it. If you like psycological movies that you like to sit and think about for days then this movie is right up your ass)