does anything really matter

[thomdotcom]

in one week i think i have broken all the rules of hat i want out of my life. I need to re-evaluate what is really important and what is just here. It is bad when you realize that you are lliving a selfdestructive life and at any moment it could all come crashing down. but who know maybe it already has and im trying to dig outnof it now. Things i do know, i hate finding things out by accident(via the nerd), i wish people would be honest, i dont like crazzy people that consistintly call my house at 2 in the morning, and i dont like waking up 2 days n a row after having nothing but bad dreams(all of which were about people i truely care for.
this enough of my rambeling i prolly should not write any of this. but who really reads it and who really cares.