June 3,2011 Journal Entry. Grandmother's birthday.
Today is my Grandmother MacMurray's birthday. She is my Mom's mother who passed away in March of 1982 at the age of 93. I guess today would be her 122nd birthday. A bit busy at work today and looking forward to leaving soon and starting my weekend even though high humidity is expected and also thunderstorms tomorrow afternoon/evening are expected.
I went to a grief counselor via my employer last Tuesday that didn't cost me any money. Talked to him for an hour and received no real advice other than for him to tell me what I am experiencing is normal and that grief has no time frame. Duh....like I didn't already know that. I would say a waste of my time but he did say a couple of things that once I heard him say them resonated with me. So I left feeling a bit better. Not necessarily happy, but something I can't quite put into words. Almost like something has been turned off, or a door closed. Something. Last night was rough, so depressed I just watched television. I did make myself sit outside on the patio and read my bible study, but that only takes about 30 minutes and after ward came back inside. Weighed myself at 207lbs which wasn't as good as I hoped. I just have to make myself go back to the gym regularly and plan to start back tomorrow. Mark works late so it doesn't really matter when I go just as long as I go tomorrow.
Having dinner tonight with my nephew Chris and his fiance Crystal which will be most enjoyable. The 4 of us haven't been together for a good bit and is always nice to be with them.
Lawn work tomorrow and then continue to enjoy the weekend as best I can. My partner works late night tomorrow and until 7pm on Sunday, so won't be with him very much. Might be a good weekend to get some chores completed around the house.
Just Say'in.
I went to a grief counselor via my employer last Tuesday that didn't cost me any money. Talked to him for an hour and received no real advice other than for him to tell me what I am experiencing is normal and that grief has no time frame. Duh....like I didn't already know that. I would say a waste of my time but he did say a couple of things that once I heard him say them resonated with me. So I left feeling a bit better. Not necessarily happy, but something I can't quite put into words. Almost like something has been turned off, or a door closed. Something. Last night was rough, so depressed I just watched television. I did make myself sit outside on the patio and read my bible study, but that only takes about 30 minutes and after ward came back inside. Weighed myself at 207lbs which wasn't as good as I hoped. I just have to make myself go back to the gym regularly and plan to start back tomorrow. Mark works late so it doesn't really matter when I go just as long as I go tomorrow.
Having dinner tonight with my nephew Chris and his fiance Crystal which will be most enjoyable. The 4 of us haven't been together for a good bit and is always nice to be with them.
Lawn work tomorrow and then continue to enjoy the weekend as best I can. My partner works late night tomorrow and until 7pm on Sunday, so won't be with him very much. Might be a good weekend to get some chores completed around the house.
Just Say'in.