The end of the week for me.
So today is Friday, and the month of April is 1/2 completed. But in my heart I have no desire for anything. No taste for anything. The air is so thick that it really does, at times, hurt me to breath. My sadness is overwhelming and so dense I can not find my way through it. My mind so crowded with self doubt, loneliness, and sorrow, that I wish to lay in silence for as long as I am able to breath. So very lonely am I for my friend. My faith teaches me there is life after death and that is the only thing I can hold on to. The very idea that I will never see him again, never hear his voice again, just makes my soul weep. Sometimes I just can't stand the pain and sorrow that I feel.
My new work laptop arrived. It's way cool and has a built in web camera. I had to call our support department as I couldn't find any way to activate the web camera. The tech tried everything he could and couldn't figure it out other than I did in fact have a web camera and the drivers were loaded. Come to find out, when they put my work "staff" build on it (since it is work owned ), they erased the web camera software. The technician found it on CD in the empty box the laptop came in. He loaded the software, restarted my laptop, and bam, I now have a workable web camera. I spent 25 pictures trying to get a decent picture of me to replace my current photo on my social networks. I narrowed it down to 3 pics. Either my eyes were closed, or I didn't have the camera angle just right. And I made a quick video and that part also works. So soon I will get back to my youtube videos under my user name: gcanary. So far I have 4 of them, dealing with my lifestyle based on the 33 years I have been out of the proverbial cabinet.
Rain is forecast for today and tomorrow. I hope to be able to mow the yards and maybe plant some new flowers and do things outside. Mostly to keep my mind busy. A birthday party Saturday afternoon should be nice. Not sure if I will make it or not, but I know I am welcome to attend without my partner even though they are "mostly" his friends. But again, really nice people who are also nice to me.
My work week was just a regular work week. Nothing much to say about it other than what I said about my new laptop. Still, I am glad I have the next 2 days off.
Just Say'in.
My new work laptop arrived. It's way cool and has a built in web camera. I had to call our support department as I couldn't find any way to activate the web camera. The tech tried everything he could and couldn't figure it out other than I did in fact have a web camera and the drivers were loaded. Come to find out, when they put my work "staff" build on it (since it is work owned ), they erased the web camera software. The technician found it on CD in the empty box the laptop came in. He loaded the software, restarted my laptop, and bam, I now have a workable web camera. I spent 25 pictures trying to get a decent picture of me to replace my current photo on my social networks. I narrowed it down to 3 pics. Either my eyes were closed, or I didn't have the camera angle just right. And I made a quick video and that part also works. So soon I will get back to my youtube videos under my user name: gcanary. So far I have 4 of them, dealing with my lifestyle based on the 33 years I have been out of the proverbial cabinet.
Rain is forecast for today and tomorrow. I hope to be able to mow the yards and maybe plant some new flowers and do things outside. Mostly to keep my mind busy. A birthday party Saturday afternoon should be nice. Not sure if I will make it or not, but I know I am welcome to attend without my partner even though they are "mostly" his friends. But again, really nice people who are also nice to me.
My work week was just a regular work week. Nothing much to say about it other than what I said about my new laptop. Still, I am glad I have the next 2 days off.
Just Say'in.