Too many times
Well, feels like a trip down roads I've traveled before again. I don't know how I find myself in these situations constantly. So, I've had interest in a young woman from work again. Not someone I work with directly. This one pretty much works at the other end of the store, so I don't run into her unless I want to. As far as I could tell she had interest in me, at least enough for those outside the situation to take notice of it, as I've been informed. But, I guess appearances can be deceiving. Instead she decides she's going to try and set me up with a friend of hers thats closer to my age. And thats where things fell down the cliff.
I don't like being set up with people as it is, since no one really knows my tastes. Usually 95% of the time I end up being rejected, and the rare 4% of the time I end up being put in a spot where I'm not attracted to the person they try and set me up with, haven't hit that 1% yet where things go well. So, last saturday she decides to bring this person up to work with her and come back to try and get me to hang out with them. I wasn't in a particularly good mood that night, not to mention haven't been outside all day sweating and tired as hell by the time I got out of work. My first impression was that I wasn't attracted to the person physically. But, I go no gauge of the personality so I agreed to go to church with them sunday, something I'd been planning to do for a while just needed a push in that direction. So I went sunday, too many churches in the area so the congregation was much smaller than what I remembered from my youth. I got an ok gauge of her personality. Unfortunately it's too much like my own, both stubborn, and I get the impression she can be either bossy or completely passive, Neither of which is something that works with what I'm looking for. Also reminded me a lot of Keiths ex Julie, thats a really bad thing as we didn't get along all that well. So now I'm stuck in a spot where I need to reject someone. I don't like having to reject people, due to my personality I feel the emotion as though I were the one being rejected, and since I know how that feels I don't like doing that to other people. I just know I can't force myself to have a relationship with someone I'm not attracted to, don't think there are many out there who could or would. And it wouldn't be fair to her or I to try and do so.
Now to add to this, the one I am interested in, the one that tried to set me up, decided to ask me what I thought. So I told her I wasn't attracted to her friend. Now she's decided she doesn't want to talk to me anymore apparently. So, now I have no way to talk to her friend to let her know my point of view. So it appears this time I lose twice...
I don't like being set up with people as it is, since no one really knows my tastes. Usually 95% of the time I end up being rejected, and the rare 4% of the time I end up being put in a spot where I'm not attracted to the person they try and set me up with, haven't hit that 1% yet where things go well. So, last saturday she decides to bring this person up to work with her and come back to try and get me to hang out with them. I wasn't in a particularly good mood that night, not to mention haven't been outside all day sweating and tired as hell by the time I got out of work. My first impression was that I wasn't attracted to the person physically. But, I go no gauge of the personality so I agreed to go to church with them sunday, something I'd been planning to do for a while just needed a push in that direction. So I went sunday, too many churches in the area so the congregation was much smaller than what I remembered from my youth. I got an ok gauge of her personality. Unfortunately it's too much like my own, both stubborn, and I get the impression she can be either bossy or completely passive, Neither of which is something that works with what I'm looking for. Also reminded me a lot of Keiths ex Julie, thats a really bad thing as we didn't get along all that well. So now I'm stuck in a spot where I need to reject someone. I don't like having to reject people, due to my personality I feel the emotion as though I were the one being rejected, and since I know how that feels I don't like doing that to other people. I just know I can't force myself to have a relationship with someone I'm not attracted to, don't think there are many out there who could or would. And it wouldn't be fair to her or I to try and do so.
Now to add to this, the one I am interested in, the one that tried to set me up, decided to ask me what I thought. So I told her I wasn't attracted to her friend. Now she's decided she doesn't want to talk to me anymore apparently. So, now I have no way to talk to her friend to let her know my point of view. So it appears this time I lose twice...