Its Been A While
wow i havent written in my journal in so long so crazy i remember when it was almost my life to write and talk to ppl but i guess times change and ppl grow up and shit right? ha im reading some of this old shit seem so important to me than but i coud just go and delte now with out a second thought. but ill save them for memories to remind me whta once was ha. wow its so funny. im so bymyself now well i live with ppl work with ppl but im not surrounded by my friends or ppl i love to hang out with any more i dont do the stupid or fun things i used to i havent been to a local show im forever since i left ak i havent smoked weed in a few months now i havent gone out and just walked around town with nothing to do even though there was a group of ppl walking with me i dont know i miss alaska with all my freakin heart but if i go back ill be missing out on some exseriances i know i will never get there its to easy to live there here i have to work my ass off to make it pay my bills and live my life clean my house do my own shit its cool and not so at the same time only thing i ned to wrk on now is finding some one im lonley as fuck and i love to be loved and held i know im a loser but hey most ppl love to have someone there for them i gota few more things to do down here then ill be okay gotta get a lisence and a car and i will have almost everything to live on my own and shit right not i live at someones house but i pay her rent and use the house as if it was my own its cool cause i work with her so its like roomates it would be diff if i didnt know her at all id be scared to live in some strangers house but her kids are cool and the neihbors are crazy but in an okay way i dont want to get into all the details ill save some stuff for the next time i write wch will hopefully more often well with the hours i work im not really awake or at home i work at night mostly with second and 1st shifts thrown in the mix and when i go to work i usually dont get home or get off wrk when im suposed to like and hour or 2 after sometimes less or more but when u see ur pay check u know thoes extra 13 or however many hours of your time paid off i really need to just save money and not spend i dunno how i spend so much i dont really go out its mostly on cabs and food and rent or theo supplies ha my lovely pain in the ass cat i have so much shit i have to get for her tick and flea stuff its going to be summer litter food a brush cat wash a mat for under hewr litter box so she stops making a mess when she hops out of it ha that reminds me i have to go to fda.gov tyo check out to see if the food im feeding her is poisning her thats nice to have to worry about heh yea well ima go do that now
-Amanda