Mind thoughts
I don't really have time to post what i'm really thinking. seeing as how i have to leave for work soon and still have to shower. But here's the shortened version that i might remember to embellish on later.
Disney- I love working there i wouldn't change this experience for the world or knowing any of the people i have met there. I'm extremely happy i made trainer i can't wait to actually train and all that good stuff. Problem is where is it taking me? I have a degree i'm not using and at this time i don't feel bad that i'm not. I could be making more money doing what i've learned to do but still i stay working for disney. am i doing this because i'm affraid of success or do i know something subconsiously that i'm meant to be there for some reason. i already know that the park is part of who i am but where does it fit into my future?
Life- I don't want to live at home but i have to, i cant afford living on my own right now. i wish i didn't have to live so far from everyone and everything. on the romantic note i'm in a state of confusion i'm lonely even though i have someone who is there for me, lately i have been kinda rejecting his presence. its like i want someone but at the same time i don't. I've become very picky and it seems i am comparing every guy to tom which is totally unfair since i hold him in such high regard. and everytime i think of him i cry. and there's nothing i can do about that situation. atleast the nightmares of him being dead have stopped. on another note i want to spend more time with my friends. it seems like the only person i spend time with is brian. i miss randomly hanging out with animal, nick and jenny. and i'd really like to branch out on the whole hanging out thing cuz it just always seems like no one is available.
That's all i have time for now, must go to work.
Disney- I love working there i wouldn't change this experience for the world or knowing any of the people i have met there. I'm extremely happy i made trainer i can't wait to actually train and all that good stuff. Problem is where is it taking me? I have a degree i'm not using and at this time i don't feel bad that i'm not. I could be making more money doing what i've learned to do but still i stay working for disney. am i doing this because i'm affraid of success or do i know something subconsiously that i'm meant to be there for some reason. i already know that the park is part of who i am but where does it fit into my future?
Life- I don't want to live at home but i have to, i cant afford living on my own right now. i wish i didn't have to live so far from everyone and everything. on the romantic note i'm in a state of confusion i'm lonely even though i have someone who is there for me, lately i have been kinda rejecting his presence. its like i want someone but at the same time i don't. I've become very picky and it seems i am comparing every guy to tom which is totally unfair since i hold him in such high regard. and everytime i think of him i cry. and there's nothing i can do about that situation. atleast the nightmares of him being dead have stopped. on another note i want to spend more time with my friends. it seems like the only person i spend time with is brian. i miss randomly hanging out with animal, nick and jenny. and i'd really like to branch out on the whole hanging out thing cuz it just always seems like no one is available.
That's all i have time for now, must go to work.