Once again... o.0

[thlegendthman]

Okay.. so..

Krista helps me forget about people I don't want to think about..
Even though I talk about those "people" all the time..
I dont' feel so.. down when I talk with her about it..

...... I've liked her for awhile......

I even did the role of a good friend and did no flirting..
Just let Beau do whatever it was he wanted..
But its weird..
I don't want something to happen because I know it'll hurt brian..
... maybe?..
But on the other hand.. I want to because I want to.

GAHHHHH!!!

Why can't I ever think about myself 100%
Man, I think the answer is simple.. because I don't spend time around her..
And she works and goes to school and we have no time to spend together.. the answer
seems simple..
Plus, I'm going to school soon..
So.. what would be the point?
But I want to..
I really
really
really
really
really
really
really want to.

Gah, I hate having to think for myself.
I wish everything in my life was predetermined and it just happened.
That would be cool as shit.