I'm not strong enough
I play it off. I make jokes.
I've been struggling the most these past few days.
If you think I've been ok, then you've been fooled. I'm sorry.
Point is, I miss her. More than I thought I would. I so did not expect this, so It's hitting me hard. I'm not saying I want to get back together with her, I don't think that'd be smart of me. I just wanna talk to her. I wanna make sure she's okay.
It may be stalkerish of me, actually it definitely is, but I think she's found someone else. She said she was going to have to, I guess I just didn't believe her. It's been a whole two weeks. It's the first two weeks in 2 1/2 years we haven't talked to each other in any way.
The shaking is back too. I can't control it.
I need control.
I need to learn to be alone.
I need to be alone.
I am alone.
I've been struggling the most these past few days.
If you think I've been ok, then you've been fooled. I'm sorry.
Point is, I miss her. More than I thought I would. I so did not expect this, so It's hitting me hard. I'm not saying I want to get back together with her, I don't think that'd be smart of me. I just wanna talk to her. I wanna make sure she's okay.
It may be stalkerish of me, actually it definitely is, but I think she's found someone else. She said she was going to have to, I guess I just didn't believe her. It's been a whole two weeks. It's the first two weeks in 2 1/2 years we haven't talked to each other in any way.
The shaking is back too. I can't control it.
I need control.
I need to learn to be alone.
I need to be alone.
I am alone.