okay...

[thisvainheart]

so.........for those of you that don't know.....

things are hard for me right now.

i found out a month or so ago that i will never ever ever ever ever have kids of my own.
there is a large 'mass' on my ovaries/uterus or scar tissue.
my body has hit menopause.

i have the option of removing the whole shebang, or just the mass.
i decided to get rid of the mass.
i'm scared.
i'm hurt.
and utterly fucking useless.

no one wants to marry a girl who can't give him a child.

i'm so out of sorts right now.