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wow. i think it would be very safe to say that i never update this anymore. well right now i am in dallas/ft worth. weatherford to be exact. my grandmother (my mom's mom, who i am not really too close to) had knee surgery the other day and afterword her heart was skipping beats and not beating at all for like 16 second intervals or something crazy like that. so basically i am here to be supportive to my family. you cant take any of that for granted. i arrived today and will be leaving tomorrow afternoon sometime. its not a serious situation now, but it totally could have been. not very pleasent to think about.
I was talking to me aunt who lives here and we got to talking about my cousin who is now a senior in high school and it made me feel OLD and also got me thinking ... he will probably graduate college before I do. I am 3-4 years older then him. wow. my life it really going places. that really makes me feel like shit. lovely. loser.
well i think that is really all i have to get off my chest at the moment. where did all my passion go and how the hell do i find it again??? i used to have so much of it and i knew exactly what i wanted in life. at least i thought i did anyway. help.
I was talking to me aunt who lives here and we got to talking about my cousin who is now a senior in high school and it made me feel OLD and also got me thinking ... he will probably graduate college before I do. I am 3-4 years older then him. wow. my life it really going places. that really makes me feel like shit. lovely. loser.
well i think that is really all i have to get off my chest at the moment. where did all my passion go and how the hell do i find it again??? i used to have so much of it and i knew exactly what i wanted in life. at least i thought i did anyway. help.