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I feel like I never write in this thing... but I guesss I do quite a bit.
So.. I have made it a whole year without so much as a word to the EX parentals. Its weird.. I kinda dont really know what to think of it.
I wonder how different my life might be right now if I had never moved out on my own.. I think I would be wayyy worse off.. probably in a mental institution or something like that. hahaahaha probably for real though.
and... for once I think that I did make the best choice. :o)
If only I could finallllly make a decision about schoooll.. I can not make up my mind. I have a billlion and sixty eight choices and thoughts running through my mind.
I would love to attend NEIA i think down in Brookline mass... but i dont want to go there alone (to mass that is) And just about everyone that i know from there willl be moving back here next year.. so who the helllllll wants to be there all alone.
I love PLAND. I have met a ton of new friends lately .. They are all really awesome.. and most of my good friends live down here.. with the exception of a few that are still home in brewer and i missss them sooo much...
i guess time will tell what the best decision for me is..
Its weird cuz lately all of my horoscopes that i read say something about goals and dreams and going for them no matter waht.. its like this is what you are meant to do. blahblahblah..
hmm.. ha :o)
alright well i have to go cuz im at work.. and i should not be doing this but we have done everytthing else there is to do.. and nooooo customers have been in in a reallly long time.
so fitting...
"Perfect"
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
So.. I have made it a whole year without so much as a word to the EX parentals. Its weird.. I kinda dont really know what to think of it.
I wonder how different my life might be right now if I had never moved out on my own.. I think I would be wayyy worse off.. probably in a mental institution or something like that. hahaahaha probably for real though.
and... for once I think that I did make the best choice. :o)
If only I could finallllly make a decision about schoooll.. I can not make up my mind. I have a billlion and sixty eight choices and thoughts running through my mind.
I would love to attend NEIA i think down in Brookline mass... but i dont want to go there alone (to mass that is) And just about everyone that i know from there willl be moving back here next year.. so who the helllllll wants to be there all alone.
I love PLAND. I have met a ton of new friends lately .. They are all really awesome.. and most of my good friends live down here.. with the exception of a few that are still home in brewer and i missss them sooo much...
i guess time will tell what the best decision for me is..
Its weird cuz lately all of my horoscopes that i read say something about goals and dreams and going for them no matter waht.. its like this is what you are meant to do. blahblahblah..
hmm.. ha :o)
alright well i have to go cuz im at work.. and i should not be doing this but we have done everytthing else there is to do.. and nooooo customers have been in in a reallly long time.
so fitting...
"Perfect"
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect