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im pissed off and im not sure if its really happening or if its just me but I need people to answer my questions honestly because i need to find out what the fuck is going on so i can fix it!?! cause i feel like i have been losing freinds and that people are avoiding me. Id also like to find out why no girl on planet earth seems to want to be arounbd mne. Am I just dreaming this or does it seem like girls try to avoid me and giv me dirty ooks. SOMEONE PLEASSE TELL ME IM GOING INSANE
1. Do I seem like I am a manic depressive and have ADD and that I need medication for both of these things? Cause Ive just been diagnosed with major depression and im supposed to take drugs for that and my oms gonna force feed them down my throat when I dont want to take them. And she is also gonna start making me take riddilin because she says it will make my life better. But will being numb, despondant and coonstantly with a smile be better for me?
2. Is it awkward to talk to me and be around me? because it seems like every conversation I have is awkward and I dont know how to fix it. OR is that just me being inwardly shy and just thinking that I make everthing awkward?
3. Am i fuckin annoying as hell? because it seems to me like I have lost good freinds (all of you are good freinds thank you) and I dont talk to many of my old ones and im really hopin that im not annoying to that extent. Is this a reason people are avoiding me?
4. Am I a weirdo? i just do certain things because i feel like it but does that make me a loser or a fucking maniac? If it does Ill go on the drugs and become just like everyone else. Is that the way to go.
5. And finaly, I just figured ill throw this in here while im trying to find out why people avoid me. Am i ugly, or is that my imagination. I must be ugly, cause guys that arent ugly dont have fucking girl problems.
Alright, if uve read through this i thank u for handeling my ranting and being my freind and id pay u all a million bucks if i could. I just had to get stuff off of my chest.
1. Do I seem like I am a manic depressive and have ADD and that I need medication for both of these things? Cause Ive just been diagnosed with major depression and im supposed to take drugs for that and my oms gonna force feed them down my throat when I dont want to take them. And she is also gonna start making me take riddilin because she says it will make my life better. But will being numb, despondant and coonstantly with a smile be better for me?
2. Is it awkward to talk to me and be around me? because it seems like every conversation I have is awkward and I dont know how to fix it. OR is that just me being inwardly shy and just thinking that I make everthing awkward?
3. Am i fuckin annoying as hell? because it seems to me like I have lost good freinds (all of you are good freinds thank you) and I dont talk to many of my old ones and im really hopin that im not annoying to that extent. Is this a reason people are avoiding me?
4. Am I a weirdo? i just do certain things because i feel like it but does that make me a loser or a fucking maniac? If it does Ill go on the drugs and become just like everyone else. Is that the way to go.
5. And finaly, I just figured ill throw this in here while im trying to find out why people avoid me. Am i ugly, or is that my imagination. I must be ugly, cause guys that arent ugly dont have fucking girl problems.
Alright, if uve read through this i thank u for handeling my ranting and being my freind and id pay u all a million bucks if i could. I just had to get stuff off of my chest.