Where do you go when you're gone?
I don’t feel myself today
Just a figure in a big monopoly game
Struggle is the price you pay
You get just enough just to give it away
I’m sinking but I’m floating away
Throw me a line so I can anchor my pain
The fabric is about to fray
The fabric is about to fray
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Things keep coming and I keep wondering
I start feeling the walls close in
Things keep coming and I keep stumbling
I start feeling I’m strong enough to break
Oh, I start feeling I’m strong enough to break
Been running through my mind today
Scenarios to add to your hypocrisy
No one ever takes the blame
But everyone is searching for a cure to the pain
Nothing ever seems to change
Oh, nothing ever seems to change
We just play like broken records in a deaf man’s charade
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Things keep coming and I keep wondering
I start feeling the walls close in
Things keep coming and I keep stumbling
I start feeling I’m strong enough to break
Oh, I start feeling I’m strong enough to break
Carry on just a pawn and the same old song
I’m still holding on
The fabric is about to fray
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Things keep coming and I keep wondering
I start feeling the walls close in
Things keep coming and I keep stumbling
I start feeling I’m strong enough
Things keep coming and I keep wondering
I start feeling the walls close in
Things keep coming and I keep stumbling
I start feeling I’m strong enough to break
Oh, I start feeling I’m strong enough to break
Ok. Honestly if you skipped those lyrics.
They bear reading.
I know they're long.
But unless you know the song.
Take your happy little but back up there and scan through them.
Because what I have to say isn't that important.
But I have walls that close me in all the time.
Me,mysekf, my own skin.
Somedays I just look in the mirror and think...
"That's not me. Where did I go?"
The past five months have been such a struggle for me.
I've talked to people.
But no one will ever truly know what I'm dealing with inside.
Has it really been five months?
Almost half a year?!?!
wow.
Where has the time gone?
What have I really done with it?
I feel worthless and lazy.
Hahaha.
Moving on.
Moving on?
I think so.
More or less?
More.
Excited?
You bet your ass.
Awkard.
Sometimes.
Painful.
Occasionally.
Memories.
Thousands.
Relaspe and flashbacks and tears.
Countless.
Knowing you can stand on your own two feet and for once you didn't do it all by yourself.
Pricelss.
Mastercard should do an ad on heartbreak.
Except it would involve some idiot girl buying shoes to mend her broken heart.
Sounds like someone I know.
I'm ready for this semester to be over.
But I am however worried about next semester because I still don't have classes.
Oh well you live and you learn.
I'll take full blame for that one.
Although I had no clue what anyone was talking about and the directions were not
very clear.
Maybe I'll go watch the RENT movie for the thrid time.
When I need to think.
Or get away.
That's where you'll find me nowadays.
Someone anwser me this...
Why do girls try to understand guys?
We can't.
Why do guys try to understand girls?
They can't.
Why do we have to make it so difficult.
Why don't we go where there is already love instead of trying
to look for it and failing miserably.
Why make it a game?
It used to be my favorite one.
I USED to be good at it.
What the heck happened?
I need to clean deperately.
I need to shower.
Just sit in the hot water and think.
Sounds something like Vienna.
right.
Sometimes I think it's impossible for me.
When did I become a people pleaser?
When did I start to care so much?
Have I always?
Of course.
Charade.
Look it up in the lyrics.
My life is the broken record.
I'm going to do it.
I'm going to start taking the blame for things I have done wrong.
Not the blame for everything.
But I'm going to stop pretending like I don't do stuff call me out on it.
It's time to just suck it up.
I'm been prideful for way too long.
Maybe that is one step to solving the puzzle.
What the puzzle is I'm not sure but maybe this will help me figure it out.
Figure it Out.
I used to love that show.
I'm so serious about everything.
But serious about nothing at all.
Why is my entire life and persona a contridiction?!?!
A part of me feels great now.
The other part?
Feels lousy.
(sick sick sick)
Why is there this part that just wants to beat people in the head?
I mean I never thought it would go back in that direction.
Serves me right for trying to think ahead.
Shut.up.
I knew right where it was going.
I called it all along.
I'm not even going to pretend to think like this comes as a shock to me.
But.
I will do what I'm good at and listen attentively.
Maybe I'm not good at listening.
I sure run my mouth a lot.
I'm about to make myself scream.
See.See!
This is what my brain does 24/7
I can't make it stop.
Anyone a psych. major?
I'd make a great project.
I should have stayed in my own little world and died slowly inside.
Not.
My brain needs new soil and a new seed.
and to run a muk or however that stupid word is spelled and wear itself out.
People think I'm agressive and angry all the time still.
I'm not. I just drive myself nucking futs.
I don't make fun of people all the time and if I do it's for comic relief.
Gah.
I am just going to take a shower.
I've been sitting here for like over on hour.
Hahaha.
Rhyming.
That's it.
I quit!
Just a figure in a big monopoly game
Struggle is the price you pay
You get just enough just to give it away
I’m sinking but I’m floating away
Throw me a line so I can anchor my pain
The fabric is about to fray
The fabric is about to fray
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Things keep coming and I keep wondering
I start feeling the walls close in
Things keep coming and I keep stumbling
I start feeling I’m strong enough to break
Oh, I start feeling I’m strong enough to break
Been running through my mind today
Scenarios to add to your hypocrisy
No one ever takes the blame
But everyone is searching for a cure to the pain
Nothing ever seems to change
Oh, nothing ever seems to change
We just play like broken records in a deaf man’s charade
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Things keep coming and I keep wondering
I start feeling the walls close in
Things keep coming and I keep stumbling
I start feeling I’m strong enough to break
Oh, I start feeling I’m strong enough to break
Carry on just a pawn and the same old song
I’m still holding on
The fabric is about to fray
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Things keep coming and I keep wondering
I start feeling the walls close in
Things keep coming and I keep stumbling
I start feeling I’m strong enough
Things keep coming and I keep wondering
I start feeling the walls close in
Things keep coming and I keep stumbling
I start feeling I’m strong enough to break
Oh, I start feeling I’m strong enough to break
Ok. Honestly if you skipped those lyrics.
They bear reading.
I know they're long.
But unless you know the song.
Take your happy little but back up there and scan through them.
Because what I have to say isn't that important.
But I have walls that close me in all the time.
Me,mysekf, my own skin.
Somedays I just look in the mirror and think...
"That's not me. Where did I go?"
The past five months have been such a struggle for me.
I've talked to people.
But no one will ever truly know what I'm dealing with inside.
Has it really been five months?
Almost half a year?!?!
wow.
Where has the time gone?
What have I really done with it?
I feel worthless and lazy.
Hahaha.
Moving on.
Moving on?
I think so.
More or less?
More.
Excited?
You bet your ass.
Awkard.
Sometimes.
Painful.
Occasionally.
Memories.
Thousands.
Relaspe and flashbacks and tears.
Countless.
Knowing you can stand on your own two feet and for once you didn't do it all by yourself.
Pricelss.
Mastercard should do an ad on heartbreak.
Except it would involve some idiot girl buying shoes to mend her broken heart.
Sounds like someone I know.
I'm ready for this semester to be over.
But I am however worried about next semester because I still don't have classes.
Oh well you live and you learn.
I'll take full blame for that one.
Although I had no clue what anyone was talking about and the directions were not
very clear.
Maybe I'll go watch the RENT movie for the thrid time.
When I need to think.
Or get away.
That's where you'll find me nowadays.
Someone anwser me this...
Why do girls try to understand guys?
We can't.
Why do guys try to understand girls?
They can't.
Why do we have to make it so difficult.
Why don't we go where there is already love instead of trying
to look for it and failing miserably.
Why make it a game?
It used to be my favorite one.
I USED to be good at it.
What the heck happened?
I need to clean deperately.
I need to shower.
Just sit in the hot water and think.
Sounds something like Vienna.
right.
Sometimes I think it's impossible for me.
When did I become a people pleaser?
When did I start to care so much?
Have I always?
Of course.
Charade.
Look it up in the lyrics.
My life is the broken record.
I'm going to do it.
I'm going to start taking the blame for things I have done wrong.
Not the blame for everything.
But I'm going to stop pretending like I don't do stuff call me out on it.
It's time to just suck it up.
I'm been prideful for way too long.
Maybe that is one step to solving the puzzle.
What the puzzle is I'm not sure but maybe this will help me figure it out.
Figure it Out.
I used to love that show.
I'm so serious about everything.
But serious about nothing at all.
Why is my entire life and persona a contridiction?!?!
A part of me feels great now.
The other part?
Feels lousy.
(sick sick sick)
Why is there this part that just wants to beat people in the head?
I mean I never thought it would go back in that direction.
Serves me right for trying to think ahead.
Shut.up.
I knew right where it was going.
I called it all along.
I'm not even going to pretend to think like this comes as a shock to me.
But.
I will do what I'm good at and listen attentively.
Maybe I'm not good at listening.
I sure run my mouth a lot.
I'm about to make myself scream.
See.See!
This is what my brain does 24/7
I can't make it stop.
Anyone a psych. major?
I'd make a great project.
I should have stayed in my own little world and died slowly inside.
Not.
My brain needs new soil and a new seed.
and to run a muk or however that stupid word is spelled and wear itself out.
People think I'm agressive and angry all the time still.
I'm not. I just drive myself nucking futs.
I don't make fun of people all the time and if I do it's for comic relief.
Gah.
I am just going to take a shower.
I've been sitting here for like over on hour.
Hahaha.
Rhyming.
That's it.
I quit!