looking back...
Am I in a spot to take something for myself?
Im in a tight spot...
" It's all for you if you want to go for it man.."
I was so slow to respond to it... blinded...
I guess I was asking myself if i was setting myself up for the continous cycle
the one I've grown so familiar with, over the years..
He was laughing and remembering the old times...
I was trying to forget some of those times..
A ton of bricks hit me in the face and i began to realize I've collapsed on myself
The voice in my head mutters," You gave in, you fucking hypocrite !!!"
I really think I managed to out do myself this time.
My gut twisted so tightly...
I could feel vomit, thick and pushing its why up my throat
the bitter taste of my stomach acid slid on to my taste buds
Then the static made me come to again.