fuck the world, a lot of people got to die tonight

[thispoisoninyou]

sometimes i just don't understand how relationships work. you think i would know seeing how i've been in a shitload of them. but apparently i don't know shit. i know what i don't like and i know that i want things to change if i don't like them but that doesn't work out that way. it usually works out with me apologizing because if i didn't, nothing would change. i'm not gonna brag and say it's because i'm the most mature in the relationship, but i'm the least stubborn. yes, i am stubborn but at times i can put my guard down and just say i'm sorry. this ends a lot of problems but then the problems i had with the other person still exists because i made it seem like ALL of our problems were my fault. i don't know. i wish there was an easy way to just put an end to a lot of bullshit. what happens when those little problems come again ? do i have to keep apologizing ? what if it's not my fault ? what if i'm just sucked completely dry from all the stress ? oh well, i guess i'll figure that out later on.

in other news, i'm starting up a side project from my current band (stem cell) with my buddy richie. so if anyone knows someone who plays guitar, bass, or drums, let me know. our style is similar to crossbreed, dope stars inc, deadstar assembly, old school static-x, etc.

peace out boy scout