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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. i am destined to live at my parent's house forever. i can't take this. i just can't. i want to die. i really do.
the apartment goes out on the market tomorrow again. and i have to hope i can find a roomate that my parenst want me to live with before someone else gets the place. i wnt to cry at the fact that someone could be living in MY apartment. no one understands how perfect this place is. and it is so close to being mine! tomorrow shall include a SERIOUS talk with mom. and telling her how fucked dad is for keeping me here by not letting me live with the one person i know that can move in with me.
i really want to die at the thought of even spending another night in this house. i might just sofocate 9in my sleep. i'm hyperventalating. i need to escape. calm down, i have it! i have it in my hand and i want to take it so bad and then i want to do what will make all my anxed go away, lett it trickel through the pours and down the drain. no one can know how unhappy i am here.
the apartment goes out on the market tomorrow again. and i have to hope i can find a roomate that my parenst want me to live with before someone else gets the place. i wnt to cry at the fact that someone could be living in MY apartment. no one understands how perfect this place is. and it is so close to being mine! tomorrow shall include a SERIOUS talk with mom. and telling her how fucked dad is for keeping me here by not letting me live with the one person i know that can move in with me.
i really want to die at the thought of even spending another night in this house. i might just sofocate 9in my sleep. i'm hyperventalating. i need to escape. calm down, i have it! i have it in my hand and i want to take it so bad and then i want to do what will make all my anxed go away, lett it trickel through the pours and down the drain. no one can know how unhappy i am here.