progress
it's been a good week since my last post. i've been doing lots of things that make me feel normal and like myself. i have worked out twice. been to yoga once. had a massage and a banya treatment. you should google that and then do it. or if you're a denver local - you should check this place out. http://www.izbaspa.com/ my bf gave me a gift certificate for christmas. he did research to find a place that would give me more than just the massage. he wanted me to get extra special treatment. he could not have found a more perfect experience for me. after my massage i went to see the latest Pedro Almodovar film. it's beautiful. true to his style and full of brilliant colors. a friend of mine said she can never figure out if he loves or hates women. i think it's a bit of both.
all the good stuff is good. there are some things that still have stress for me though. work for one. i have no boss. i am in charge of fully motivating myself to do my job and sometimes i wish there was someone to give me direction. on one hand, i love it. there's so much freedom and i'm in control of the day. but accountability is a good thing. i come in to work around 10 most days and feel guilty about it. sure, i stay late on several days of the week, but that's not really what i want for my life. so maybe part of the change i need here is to say these things out loud.
it feels good to be working on getting healthy again. the bf is in the same place and i'm glad to have his support, and to support him on this too. being in a relationship and remembering to take care of each of ourselves is challenging. i think it's a challenge for most people. it takes work to be partners and individuals. but the partnership feels stronger when we are each at our best. i sure love him.
all the good stuff is good. there are some things that still have stress for me though. work for one. i have no boss. i am in charge of fully motivating myself to do my job and sometimes i wish there was someone to give me direction. on one hand, i love it. there's so much freedom and i'm in control of the day. but accountability is a good thing. i come in to work around 10 most days and feel guilty about it. sure, i stay late on several days of the week, but that's not really what i want for my life. so maybe part of the change i need here is to say these things out loud.
it feels good to be working on getting healthy again. the bf is in the same place and i'm glad to have his support, and to support him on this too. being in a relationship and remembering to take care of each of ourselves is challenging. i think it's a challenge for most people. it takes work to be partners and individuals. but the partnership feels stronger when we are each at our best. i sure love him.