quiet day walking
quiet day walking, originally uploaded by racheeroo2you.
some days it's just too quiet i think. i've haven't said two words to anyone for hours and i feel like a zombie. something strange happens when i am alone. i feel like there is no human who understands my world. somedays i dream of a communication that does not require explanations. i mean, what if you met someone who just understood that the way you touched your head meant you were happy. i spend too much time contemplating what it is that we seek from interactions and why it is we desire them. i would be in a cloud if i were to say that i didn't know those desires are so so different from person to person to person. but really.....what is our natural instinct? what has been fucked up by stories of history. i guess what i mean is certain stories over time have supported ideas of how we should live. an example would be religions. they have created moral systems that we have some how come to believe are the way we "should" live. and i'm not even talking about the people who consider themselves religious. i mean really, a large part of the world shapes it's ideas of right and wrong based off of christianity. even when we don't realize it, agnosticts, athiests, so many otheres have some idea of natural laws that are created by the idealogy of the christina or 'biblical' upbringings. but if we were to strip all of that. take it away. what is human nature? really? i'm not sure if that makes sense but it's what rambles from my fingertips.
i think too many days are spent unsatisfied lately.