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this feeling keeps coming back and i keep shoving it away, but i need to deal with it.
im incredibly mixed up on wether or not to graduate early and how im going to pull it off if i do decide to.
i have so many adults telling me it's not a good idea, that i will miss out on "important things", but the thing is i have different priorities. my priority in life is not to have fun nor is it to have a 'good' senior year. senior year is for figuring out what you want to do, where your'e going. i know. i have been given this amazing sense. i know what i have been called to do on Earth. I have this really strong feeling that Azuza is the college i should go to and that is the only college i am applying to next year. If i dont get in, then that means i need to stay for my senior year and re-apply my senior year. thats just fine too. the tough thing is i need to be able to convey to my parents that this is my calling. the way things are going in my family right now are amazing, and i think right now is the time to tell them. they already know i want to do this but they dont understand why i want to or why i need to do this, but they will very shortly. within the next week or two, when the time is right. it feels so right when i talk about it. it feels like this is my calling, and i know it is. i have such an amazing oppurtunity. money shouldnt even be a problem. i worked out all of the financial aspects of it. if i work all next year at minimum wage and put about half of that money towards college that even helps. i have so many people in my family who are so supportive of me and are wealthy enough to help me out. not to mention scholarships. i just got bumped up to president for choir so that is going to look good on my application. then i have christian club counsal. i also plan on having an internship next year, which will also help tremendously. if i kepp my gpa where it is i have the perfect grades to be accepted. Azuza really isnt to hard of a school to get into if you have the right things.
that probably didnt benefit any of you who actually read that all, and if you read that all i love you. but that right there just completly cleared my mind and organized everything for me.
hes amazing. <3