Give me peace of mind....
I'm thrown between different stages of awereness. I hear the world around me buzzing like sum fly that wont go out that open window right infront of it. It fades. I fall. I dream. And yet i'm still awake. I create all that goes on in my head. These dreams i dream are visions my thoughts manifested in its quest to make sum sense out of what i'm feeling. Strange. I havnt been able to feel myself slip out of consciousness and still be aware of it in a while. its scary. feeling your body go numb. Envisioning what could happen and what you wish happened. Hearing conversations you wish you could have but you cant. b/c you lose all words when you try to speak. Scary b/c for a few moments you forget that its not real - the warmth u feel and the sound you hear and the tears you think you're crying. And I throw myself out of it. Terrified that it *is* real. . .
. . .I can't help but feel 13 again.
. . .I can't help but feel 13 again.