Apr 25, 2005 22:09
so i decided to start all over, my other account was givng me a headache and i wasn't really using it anyway.
on friday i went to see rachelle's play, and she was so unbelievably awesome, i loved it =) afterwards brad dropped me and brian off at casey's house; blaise was throwing a little kickback since their parents were gonna be gone for 10 days. i called mikeyyy and he brought some ppl over, which was probably a good idea cuz then no one got bored. i drank rum, which i really shouldn't have, since i told elyse i wasnt planning on drinking that night to begin with. i wanted to make sure she'd be okay, which she wasnt. she threw up the whole night but i couldnt help her much cuz i had a fatty headache. after 5 shots and half an hour, my head was feeling pretty much like a train track would probably feel if it were alive, every time a train passes over it. i completely missed the "drunk" part and went straight to the hangover.and having Dre teach me how to throw up was sad. i'd never had to before- i think i'm gonna keep it that way.
there were some good parts, but the stars weren't out that night haha. brian and i mostly sat on the steps outside and talked since being inside was making me feel all suffocated and dizzy. that ended the night on a good note. he stayed sober, and i would very much rather have been also. he was nice about it though. jessi and i got home around 2 and crashed. i forgot to say goodnight to mom =T
i'm failing trig. and i have no idea why. i understand everything she teaches us, and never have a problem doing any of the homework. but i can never retain anything. i need help. but i don't know what i need help with? or who to ask.
i need rainbows. sunshine's blog surprised me. it made me <3 her more, theres a good side to everything. [you won't understand what i'm saying here.] i'm not usually this melodramatic. it's one of those days. i'm sick and have a headache. i should probably start ellis's work.
i wish i wasn't so against attachments. maybe then i'd let myself fall. and not feel so empty. its not as easy as it sounds.
goodnight<3