Old school.
I'm in a nostalgic kind of mood. I just read through all my old entries, observing the fact that people change and many eventually drift away with time. Certain things in life used to fall higher on my priority list than they do now. Soon, I will embark on journey that will give me the skills and the connections to achieve my potential career goals. I can't mess it up. I know I'm going to miss home though. That parental comfort (I'm going to miss my mommy and daddy! haha), although less than an hour away, has always been something that I have cherished throughtout the years. Thank God, I am rooming with someone I know, because I will undoubtedly have trouble with the transition. It's so weird to think that kids that I've gotten close to these past few years won't necssarily be right there. Sure, I'll keep in touch with a few, and a good amount are actually attending the same university, but I don't expect it to be like high school. We're going to be on our own. It scares me a little. Also, I want to get involved and live the college life to the fullest, but I'm afraid that my grades might slip if I do. I'm not even there, and stuff liek that crosses my mind every day.
Once again, what a difference just a few years make. If you asked me last year where I stood on certain situations and/or relationships I never would have guessed this is how it would have turned out. Ultimately, it was a learning experience. You never really notice how much time you spend with a person, until that person disappears from your life. At first, it started out emotionally, but to seldomly actually see the person makes it all the more obvious. I suppose that's just a tactic to push someone away, but there are plenty more ways to do so without causing stress and pain for the individual. And now, to be treated with such kindness and even partaking in intellectual conversations, almost seems unreal to me. I'm really happy with my current situation, but reluctant to dive in too fast because I don't want to face the potential circumstances. Regardless, I am going to do what is right for me and just learn from the past, not dwell on it. It's time for a fresh start, so I'm going to absorb as much knowledge and activity that I can. Wish me luck. :)
Once again, what a difference just a few years make. If you asked me last year where I stood on certain situations and/or relationships I never would have guessed this is how it would have turned out. Ultimately, it was a learning experience. You never really notice how much time you spend with a person, until that person disappears from your life. At first, it started out emotionally, but to seldomly actually see the person makes it all the more obvious. I suppose that's just a tactic to push someone away, but there are plenty more ways to do so without causing stress and pain for the individual. And now, to be treated with such kindness and even partaking in intellectual conversations, almost seems unreal to me. I'm really happy with my current situation, but reluctant to dive in too fast because I don't want to face the potential circumstances. Regardless, I am going to do what is right for me and just learn from the past, not dwell on it. It's time for a fresh start, so I'm going to absorb as much knowledge and activity that I can. Wish me luck. :)