my room is fucking clean
I've decided that my life is very uneventful, and i'm perfectly fine with that...i guess. even though my life lacks adventure, i know a few people who have it a lot worse than me.
So anyways - today is monday and i did not have lunch with my twin or toi. i can't get a hold of my wife, jenni valentine, for the life of me. i left her a message today so hopefully she'll get it and we can reschedule for tomorrow. twin/toi time is much needed.
Addison and Scott came over and cleaned my entire room yesterday. but seriously, when i say clean, i don't just mean vacuuming and picking up all my clothes. i mean going into every nook and cranny of my room and emptying/scrubbing/rearranging EVERYTHING. it was like a professional cleaning job and it looks wonderful. having a clean room is one of my very favorite things in the whole world, probably because i'm a big loser haha but i do enjoy it. after that we went and swam in the inlet at scotts house and then his pool. we went our separate ways for a little while so i could take a shower and eat and whatnot. then they came back over and we had a few drinks with jenna. it was fun times.
I think...no, wait, i AM going to dye my hair this week. i must. i'm so completely bored with my look right now. i think i'm gonna go for a deep chocolate brown. sounds good. i just need something to change. i'm gonna have jenna do it for me since she just did hers and it look awesome.
There's so many people that i haven't hung out with this summer that i really wish i had. i know soooo many sweet and awesome people and i feel like i've neglected them. not only that but there's people that i've all of a sudden stopped hanging out with on a regular basis and i don't know why.
i'm really scared for my senior year. it's pathetic. i feel like i'm just gonna fuck up and no college will want me. even though i know i could just go to TCC for 2 years then transfer to wherever, but i want to leave when everyone else leaves. i want to be normal and just go to college. i'm such a fucking slacker that i don't think i'll be able to. i want to leave and then come back in the summer too all my friends and have this sweet reunion because they haven't seen me in so long, but i have that sick feeling in the pit of my stomach that i won't have that. i'm such a loser that i worry about all this and worry about it NOW for that matter. but it always brings me back to that lingering thought that there are people who have it so much worse so be grateful. and i am. so i'll just go with the flow because everything happens for a reason, right? right.
well i have an entire night ahead of me and i'm still in my PJs because i've been sitting around reading. yeah that's right, reading. all by myself, no one told me to. haha. so i'm outta here y'all.
<3s. mairi
So anyways - today is monday and i did not have lunch with my twin or toi. i can't get a hold of my wife, jenni valentine, for the life of me. i left her a message today so hopefully she'll get it and we can reschedule for tomorrow. twin/toi time is much needed.
Addison and Scott came over and cleaned my entire room yesterday. but seriously, when i say clean, i don't just mean vacuuming and picking up all my clothes. i mean going into every nook and cranny of my room and emptying/scrubbing/rearranging EVERYTHING. it was like a professional cleaning job and it looks wonderful. having a clean room is one of my very favorite things in the whole world, probably because i'm a big loser haha but i do enjoy it. after that we went and swam in the inlet at scotts house and then his pool. we went our separate ways for a little while so i could take a shower and eat and whatnot. then they came back over and we had a few drinks with jenna. it was fun times.
I think...no, wait, i AM going to dye my hair this week. i must. i'm so completely bored with my look right now. i think i'm gonna go for a deep chocolate brown. sounds good. i just need something to change. i'm gonna have jenna do it for me since she just did hers and it look awesome.
There's so many people that i haven't hung out with this summer that i really wish i had. i know soooo many sweet and awesome people and i feel like i've neglected them. not only that but there's people that i've all of a sudden stopped hanging out with on a regular basis and i don't know why.
i'm really scared for my senior year. it's pathetic. i feel like i'm just gonna fuck up and no college will want me. even though i know i could just go to TCC for 2 years then transfer to wherever, but i want to leave when everyone else leaves. i want to be normal and just go to college. i'm such a fucking slacker that i don't think i'll be able to. i want to leave and then come back in the summer too all my friends and have this sweet reunion because they haven't seen me in so long, but i have that sick feeling in the pit of my stomach that i won't have that. i'm such a loser that i worry about all this and worry about it NOW for that matter. but it always brings me back to that lingering thought that there are people who have it so much worse so be grateful. and i am. so i'll just go with the flow because everything happens for a reason, right? right.
well i have an entire night ahead of me and i'm still in my PJs because i've been sitting around reading. yeah that's right, reading. all by myself, no one told me to. haha. so i'm outta here y'all.
<3s. mairi