oh how you keep me grounded.
first :
thank you bret and margerett for keeping me grounded today. i probably woul dhave freeked the fuck out if you hadn't been there. its so funny how things come spewing from your mouth when someone offers an honest, open ear...and you know they are listening...im glad i said out loud what i have been needing to say...and i think the sea sickness pushed it out of me too...haha. i needed dramamine bad....
second and furthermore:
today pissed me off...but it was also a good day. i couldnt decide which it was. i got a fuckin huge phone bill in the mail...i got a really retarded phone call..although i knew it was coming (and thanks anyways because i know you were just trying to help)...i saw something that (here is where the bret thank you comes in) that pissed me off...but its "always trouble and shouldn't exist for these reasons" ..but then at the end of the day as i walked from my car to my apartment door i started laughing thinking about the funny ass conversations i had today and the little things people said today that made me laugh really hard and in turn feel better.
borgi you make me laugh so hard!!! you and josh had me laughing so hard the last two days....thank you soooo much. your stories are ridiculous...and i love them. haha.
i was thinking about some old old things today...
im really proud of myself. i have done some things in the last three or four weeks that have just really made me feel better....apologizing to one of my closest friends from back in the day (it so doesnt seem that long ago)....taking serious care of myself this time instead of self-distructing...and just trying to sit back and enjoy the ride instead of worrying and dwelling.
im probably going to delete this journal...none ever writes in it or reads it. lol.
thank you bret and margerett for keeping me grounded today. i probably woul dhave freeked the fuck out if you hadn't been there. its so funny how things come spewing from your mouth when someone offers an honest, open ear...and you know they are listening...im glad i said out loud what i have been needing to say...and i think the sea sickness pushed it out of me too...haha. i needed dramamine bad....
second and furthermore:
today pissed me off...but it was also a good day. i couldnt decide which it was. i got a fuckin huge phone bill in the mail...i got a really retarded phone call..although i knew it was coming (and thanks anyways because i know you were just trying to help)...i saw something that (here is where the bret thank you comes in) that pissed me off...but its "always trouble and shouldn't exist for these reasons" ..but then at the end of the day as i walked from my car to my apartment door i started laughing thinking about the funny ass conversations i had today and the little things people said today that made me laugh really hard and in turn feel better.
borgi you make me laugh so hard!!! you and josh had me laughing so hard the last two days....thank you soooo much. your stories are ridiculous...and i love them. haha.
i was thinking about some old old things today...
im really proud of myself. i have done some things in the last three or four weeks that have just really made me feel better....apologizing to one of my closest friends from back in the day (it so doesnt seem that long ago)....taking serious care of myself this time instead of self-distructing...and just trying to sit back and enjoy the ride instead of worrying and dwelling.
im probably going to delete this journal...none ever writes in it or reads it. lol.