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I want him in my life, but I do not need him to survive. I do love him, but this isn't the type of love that is tearing me apart. I finally grew balls and talked to him. We worked everything out, and I told him how I felt. I'm not sure exactly what to do with this though. My life at the moment is pretty messed up and way confusing. Then again I don’t believe I can think of a time when it wasn’t. I don’t know how long he is staying in DePue. … I think he's debating about moving back. So that's..erm…idk.
I think I wish I could go back in time to try to pin point the moment where things got to…fucked up. …. Not just with Matt but with everyone I've ever known. I know where it went bad with Nick, and at times I do wish that never happened,. Am I talking about finding out he had a gf? Or the entire thing we had? .. Yeah, sometimes I wonder too. But I usually don’t make it a habit to regret things… ever.
Meh. I need to do school work now.
I really need my computer back
I think I wish I could go back in time to try to pin point the moment where things got to…fucked up. …. Not just with Matt but with everyone I've ever known. I know where it went bad with Nick, and at times I do wish that never happened,. Am I talking about finding out he had a gf? Or the entire thing we had? .. Yeah, sometimes I wonder too. But I usually don’t make it a habit to regret things… ever.
Meh. I need to do school work now.
I really need my computer back