sick..
okay so if nichole is supposedly my best friend then how come she doesnt listen to a single word i say. she says that i am her best friend but then if i am what is asya to her? i know that no matter what if she had to choose between me and asya she would choose her in a second over me. i know that. and like who do i really have as friends. i mean i know i have friends but not really close friends. bree has kelly, nichole has asya. what does anything even matter anymore?. nichole adds way to much stuff to everything. did she even think why we would wait until shes gone is becasue she adds way to much shit to everything! she makes everything so more diffucult then it has to be. so who cares its her brother. im her best friend doesnt she want me to be happy? i know that everthing with him was a mistake but it doesnt matter it could have been some other boy and i would have gotten my heartbroken anyways. you think i wouldnt tell her becasue i was going to change my mind and tell her that. whatever im so sick of life, and drama, and crying..and grades my fucking dad is the biggest jerk in the world all becasue im not perfect. he needs to get a life and leave mine alone. wait what life. i dont even have one anymore. i should have just stayed safe and stayed being friends with leo. so what if i would have less fun and so what if leo always only told me what i wanted to here. i would be safe and i wouldnt be hurt and i wouldnt be doing anything that im not supposed to be doing. ugh. im so sick of nichole. have i said that? she says shes done with whatever. i dont really care. shes what makes my life so bad and now shes gonna be like ohh whatever taylor and blame everything on me. im so sick of it. ugh. oh and her saying that im the one with problems. yea i have problems. i do i swear to god and i wish they would go away but she has problems too. i cant talk to her so she wouldnt even know what my problems are. if im sad or mad or whatever im automatically called emo just becasue she doesnt like it when people are depressed or whatever. wtf let me be god damn depressed.. whatever. she says shes done. im done.