ONE OF THESE DAYS YOU'LL WONDER WHERE I AM
AND YOU'LL REMEMBER THAT YOU FORGOT TO TELL ME GOODBYE
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I'd like to appreciate the people in my life more.For example,ever since I moved last year,I always knew that Jackie and Shannon and Jasmine missed me..I guess it just never really sunk in.I know i'm only 20 miles away from them,but its a big change from 2 miles.I'm told that everyday in art class Jackie and Shannon talk about me..they discuss what we will do when we take our first road trip,they talk about what they will get me for Christmas and my birthday,they call me "sunshine girl" because my favorite color use to be yellow and I use to almost embody the color..I was always vibrant,happy energetic..the whole package.In Jackie's words "she tries be a red and black person now,but she'll always be yellow."
They know me better than I know myself.Thats a rare thing to have.
In my personal opinion,I think that I have the best friends in the world.
And if thats all I'll have ever..its enough.
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Sometimes just a good conversation can lift your spirits completely.Comforting talk about nothing in particular..you just sort of drift from subject to subject..and its okay when theres silence because you know the person on the other end of the line..and they don't mind the silence either.And youre one of those people I'd like to keep all for myself,because I don't want to share your goodness with anyone else.
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I've been thinking about my future alot lately,I'm only a sophomore I know,but going to college and becoming a writer is the only thing I've ever wanted to do.Its my dream,and I refuse to let go of it.I do not want to be one of those people that never live out their dream because they think its "too unpractical" and they settle for a desk job answering phones and punching out at 5:00 every night with a headache.I will not be one of those people that never go anywhere outside of their own state.No,my mom did it.And it took my mom until she was 37 to start doing what she wanted to do,until she was happy.What about Boston University?I've also been looking at Kenyon College in Ohio.
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I told my mom I was going to write a novel by the time I was out of high school.She smiles her "there goes my daughter again with her silly ideas" smile.I like that smile,because inside I know shes hoping I will.
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I ordered a shirt on-line for Mr Jake Kendrick for his birthday.I hope he likes it:
He loves shirts like these +++
I think the name of my novel is going to be Sunshine Girl..
What should my pen name be?
Think on that for me, will you?
-me