i love being elevated.
I just went to get a pop-tart, the box said i could win a Darth Vader voice changer...if i heard vader music when i opened the box. and i knew my box was the(or a) winner. I could just feel it. So i just embraced myself, and excitingly opened the box that i knew vader music was about to come out of...so finally get it opened (20 forevesr away) and couldnt hear the vader music. So i figured my box didn't work, but the WINNER card was somewhere in it...and i searched, and it wasn't. Talk about dissapointment.
Tonight is going by much better than last night. Fuck friends with drugs. Keeping me up all night. Stop it. And stop going to jail. and just to think, it was almost me too, if only i didn't need to go mother's day shopping during that hour or 2. I hate to say it but, better you then me. And i almost hate to say it, but...i told you so.
I haven't slept in days. Got home around 7 this morning. and my auntie woke me up at 10 to go to the mall. it was a FULL day at the mall. i got home around 5:30, and slept till 9, and now im wide awake(but it's not morning).
I was thinking, and Karina...i don't want you to leave us.(us being me...and manda, i guess?). I was looking at graduation gifts and cards today, and thought about getting her something...so she could graduate...and go off to better things...and leave us...for another town. So, i didn't buy her anything. I guess i thought if i didn't get her anything, she couldn't leave. B/c i am just that powerful.
The animal control people tried to take Snicket away yesterday. The guy was very mean to Snicket, and myself. I'l cut a bitch. I hate people being assholeish to animals. and myself. My AIM-thing stopped working. I'm hungry. And Snicket wants to come in. I will remember to remember to forget you. and i'm drinking a coke, and i hate coke. Modest Mouse is good. And powerful. and im a good influence. I want a bike. though i'd never ride it. I want another job, but not bad enough to go search for one. I want a new friend, i can trust. i want a dog, an alaskian husky. and a tv. and to find my Ugly Casanova cd. and a new book, that i can relate to. or not relate to at all. I just finnished reading Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas...again. Go fugre. Nita told me today she liked buying my stuff(lunch,ect) and she forgets im almost 20, and she has no one else to buy for, so it kinda makes her feel special and needed. And i told her i didn't have anyone to buy for me, so it made me feel special and wanted. and she said that's true...and quickly changed it to 'i mean, you have your mom' and i was like 'yeah, and what does she ever buy me' ...kiddingly, but then realized my sarcarstic rhetorical question...was true. I don't know why i would even mention this. I don't like people to buy me things...i just think my aunt,mema, and nanny buy me things(or try to), it's b/c my mom doesn't. And she never has helped me out. ...money wise, anyway. i love my mom to death. I just don't want my grandma's and aunt to think i need that. It mkes me sad that they think my mom isn't as great as she should/could be. My mom's the best ever. And she's given me plenty of money in the past. Yah know, when you get to the age where you just stop wearing wal-mart cltohes. Well, the rest of the family thought so anyway..So my mom felt she needed to get me 'mall' clothes, and 'mall' shoes. And we ddnt have money for mallistic things, so i'm sure she's still paying for clothes i got when i was 14. Then october the 10th, i started my life as a 16 yeard old, and as an outback employee and paid for everything i bought since. (meaning i was back to thrift stores ) She just doesn't have money to help me get a car...or a home, i dont think. Or she would...i think.
Blah. It has taken me foreverever to type this post. Days even. i have the perfect lil home picked out. Now i just need 2 room mates. Or to get rich, quick. Either will do. Gonna go do cryptograms now, fun!
Tonight is going by much better than last night. Fuck friends with drugs. Keeping me up all night. Stop it. And stop going to jail. and just to think, it was almost me too, if only i didn't need to go mother's day shopping during that hour or 2. I hate to say it but, better you then me. And i almost hate to say it, but...i told you so.
I haven't slept in days. Got home around 7 this morning. and my auntie woke me up at 10 to go to the mall. it was a FULL day at the mall. i got home around 5:30, and slept till 9, and now im wide awake(but it's not morning).
I was thinking, and Karina...i don't want you to leave us.(us being me...and manda, i guess?). I was looking at graduation gifts and cards today, and thought about getting her something...so she could graduate...and go off to better things...and leave us...for another town. So, i didn't buy her anything. I guess i thought if i didn't get her anything, she couldn't leave. B/c i am just that powerful.
The animal control people tried to take Snicket away yesterday. The guy was very mean to Snicket, and myself. I'l cut a bitch. I hate people being assholeish to animals. and myself. My AIM-thing stopped working. I'm hungry. And Snicket wants to come in. I will remember to remember to forget you. and i'm drinking a coke, and i hate coke. Modest Mouse is good. And powerful. and im a good influence. I want a bike. though i'd never ride it. I want another job, but not bad enough to go search for one. I want a new friend, i can trust. i want a dog, an alaskian husky. and a tv. and to find my Ugly Casanova cd. and a new book, that i can relate to. or not relate to at all. I just finnished reading Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas...again. Go fugre. Nita told me today she liked buying my stuff(lunch,ect) and she forgets im almost 20, and she has no one else to buy for, so it kinda makes her feel special and needed. And i told her i didn't have anyone to buy for me, so it made me feel special and wanted. and she said that's true...and quickly changed it to 'i mean, you have your mom' and i was like 'yeah, and what does she ever buy me' ...kiddingly, but then realized my sarcarstic rhetorical question...was true. I don't know why i would even mention this. I don't like people to buy me things...i just think my aunt,mema, and nanny buy me things(or try to), it's b/c my mom doesn't. And she never has helped me out. ...money wise, anyway. i love my mom to death. I just don't want my grandma's and aunt to think i need that. It mkes me sad that they think my mom isn't as great as she should/could be. My mom's the best ever. And she's given me plenty of money in the past. Yah know, when you get to the age where you just stop wearing wal-mart cltohes. Well, the rest of the family thought so anyway..So my mom felt she needed to get me 'mall' clothes, and 'mall' shoes. And we ddnt have money for mallistic things, so i'm sure she's still paying for clothes i got when i was 14. Then october the 10th, i started my life as a 16 yeard old, and as an outback employee and paid for everything i bought since. (meaning i was back to thrift stores ) She just doesn't have money to help me get a car...or a home, i dont think. Or she would...i think.
Blah. It has taken me foreverever to type this post. Days even. i have the perfect lil home picked out. Now i just need 2 room mates. Or to get rich, quick. Either will do. Gonna go do cryptograms now, fun!