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SO. I have just been thinking. me and him- weve both moved on. but for some reason..I have saved everything. In my mind, and especailly in my mail. The most influental words ive ever heard in my life. The way he said I love you..the way he explained his feelings for me. It was a deep sigh of relief, I liked him so much. I mean, how can he not feel that way anymore. How could he ever. How could he say those things and mean it one day.. I'm moved on believe me..But I just don't understand. It's not that Im going to say its because hes an asshole..because I wouldn't really know..It just hurt me..the things he took back you know. And I mean..I wish you all couldav'e seen the things he wrote to me. I wish. But I just deleted them. Don't know why I really saved them..maybe beacuse they are something I could look back on..and say GOD I am retarded. So I am Glad I deleted it..now Hoping I could never think of it again. Because everytime I would look..and for some reason I would once in a while..I just can't believe it. I really can't. Life sucks. And believe me, Iv'e gotten way over that.
That was on my mind..other than it..I had a good night. Me and lauren had fun..and people at my school can suck themselves. because they all really need to grow up and stop making me want to put a gun to my head and theirs.
That was on my mind..other than it..I had a good night. Me and lauren had fun..and people at my school can suck themselves. because they all really need to grow up and stop making me want to put a gun to my head and theirs.