I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
I am here, finally visible, probably just once to reflect on the happenings and my outlook on life. Am supposed to be studying since I have always told myself I will start in February, but I guess I'll just get this hustleandbustle internet thing done with so I won't be tempted to come here as often once I REALLY do start on my 3 months hardcore mugging.
So much has happened, and you'd know as much if you could read my private posts, but no one is able to. A month plus isn't a long duration, but I've settled down in a relationship. And close friends would know that this hasn't been a sudden thing, or a relationship that popped out of nowhere. Through many obstacles, through what many have said and expressed opinions about, through much assurance, somehow, this shield is down. The shield that I have been building up on since a year ago. At times, you will still be affected by what people are saying. But then, there comes a time when those don't really matter anymore. At times, people close to me will think I'm juvenile and naive. But let time prove that I've never been as clearminded and mature to know what I'm doing now is right. What pushes me to be a better daughter, I guess it's obvious, right? I'm not lying when I say I'm seeing forever with you.
Was pretty inspired to blog after reading a blog. Outlook on life right now? Doesn't really make sense when I'm dealing with mathematics. Sometimes you wonder if you've made the right decision to pursue a degree. No it doesn't make sense cause you somehow know you can't exactly apply what you've learnt in university in life. And 3 months of hardcore mugging really takes some most of your life away. And yes, cause the freaking world is freaking competitive, you'd definitely lose out if you don't have a degree blahblahblah. Some friends who aren't continuing their studies wonder how I can be motivated to go through uni. And I'll always say, submit to fate. That's life, most of the times you'll just have to do that. I can envision myself having a job that I don't really enjoy, but then again, if I wanna have a job that I really like, I won't even be doing this course in uni. Wonder when will the day come when I'm pursuing something that I really enjoy doing. Takes lots of courage plus a little insanity, especially when you've practical parents. Okay that said, I'll go pursue the impracticalities of maths. Till 5pm that is.
And till I put down the invisible cloak again. ^^
So much has happened, and you'd know as much if you could read my private posts, but no one is able to. A month plus isn't a long duration, but I've settled down in a relationship. And close friends would know that this hasn't been a sudden thing, or a relationship that popped out of nowhere. Through many obstacles, through what many have said and expressed opinions about, through much assurance, somehow, this shield is down. The shield that I have been building up on since a year ago. At times, you will still be affected by what people are saying. But then, there comes a time when those don't really matter anymore. At times, people close to me will think I'm juvenile and naive. But let time prove that I've never been as clearminded and mature to know what I'm doing now is right. What pushes me to be a better daughter, I guess it's obvious, right? I'm not lying when I say I'm seeing forever with you.
Was pretty inspired to blog after reading a blog. Outlook on life right now? Doesn't really make sense when I'm dealing with mathematics. Sometimes you wonder if you've made the right decision to pursue a degree. No it doesn't make sense cause you somehow know you can't exactly apply what you've learnt in university in life. And 3 months of hardcore mugging really takes some most of your life away. And yes, cause the freaking world is freaking competitive, you'd definitely lose out if you don't have a degree blahblahblah. Some friends who aren't continuing their studies wonder how I can be motivated to go through uni. And I'll always say, submit to fate. That's life, most of the times you'll just have to do that. I can envision myself having a job that I don't really enjoy, but then again, if I wanna have a job that I really like, I won't even be doing this course in uni. Wonder when will the day come when I'm pursuing something that I really enjoy doing. Takes lots of courage plus a little insanity, especially when you've practical parents. Okay that said, I'll go pursue the impracticalities of maths. Till 5pm that is.
And till I put down the invisible cloak again. ^^