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I'm kinda falling apart at the moment. I can't really put how Im feeling into words. I'm just down. Down on myself, down on everything. Somehow I am singlehandedly destroying every relationship that really means something to me.
I feel like I have no friends left at Columbia. And this isnt helping. I feel like all of the people that I've built myself around here, now want very little to do with me. And that theyd carry on their lives perfectly fine without me. And I'm starting to think if I'dve been better off just staying in Boston. I know it isnt true..I just wonder.
I'm sick of feeling this way. Or rather not feeling. I just want to sleep all day, and have someone tell me things are better now.
I'm scaring myself.
I feel like I have no friends left at Columbia. And this isnt helping. I feel like all of the people that I've built myself around here, now want very little to do with me. And that theyd carry on their lives perfectly fine without me. And I'm starting to think if I'dve been better off just staying in Boston. I know it isnt true..I just wonder.
I'm sick of feeling this way. Or rather not feeling. I just want to sleep all day, and have someone tell me things are better now.
I'm scaring myself.